Inkednready1
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I have been on my PMO/reboot journey for about 60 days. I haven?t posted in my main journal for a while. To recap, I?m 44, married, had a very active sex life until PMO gave me a serious bout of PIED. It affected almost every aspect of my marriage. I began the journey, I flatlined for a while, came out of the flat line and have been doing well. Gym, meditation, cold showers... all tools that helped. We began having sex regularly (1-2 a week) a few weeks ago and it?s been great! No porn (well, no hard core PORNHUB viewing lol. Its difficult to avoid erotic content anymore) and no real urges to watch. Definitely no masturbation. My main struggle is erotic chatting, which I am still working on. I am self aware enough to catch myself. I have slipped a bit in this aspect but it didn?t lead me into a relapse of PMO/MO. I have experienced some continued minor ED issues but nothing like I was before so I consider myself to be still on the path.
This leads me to tonight... I was in the mood, but my wife is experiencing some female issues so she wasn?t in the mood. I said ok no big deal and continued getting ready for bed. She then suggested that she wouldn?t mind watching me MO (for the record, I?ve discussed our adventurous side before). I was hesitant since I wasn?t sure if it would affect my progress, but since it was more a couples activity and she would be watching/enjoying the show, I agreed. No porn was involved and just senses and touching. I am now wondering/have concerns on what I should consider tonight on my personal tracker...So here is my question, and I may be overthinking it...
Since this event involved my wife, and it was for mutual enjoyment, should I consider this as sex? Or MO? Do you think I had a setback on my journey? Or further progress? Inquiring minds want to know?
This leads me to tonight... I was in the mood, but my wife is experiencing some female issues so she wasn?t in the mood. I said ok no big deal and continued getting ready for bed. She then suggested that she wouldn?t mind watching me MO (for the record, I?ve discussed our adventurous side before). I was hesitant since I wasn?t sure if it would affect my progress, but since it was more a couples activity and she would be watching/enjoying the show, I agreed. No porn was involved and just senses and touching. I am now wondering/have concerns on what I should consider tonight on my personal tracker...So here is my question, and I may be overthinking it...
Since this event involved my wife, and it was for mutual enjoyment, should I consider this as sex? Or MO? Do you think I had a setback on my journey? Or further progress? Inquiring minds want to know?