Welcome to the club swissmd and congratulations to you on taking a big step to your journey of recovery.
Are you going through this process on your own or do you have a partner?
Does anyone outside of the Internet know what yiu are going through?
Have you any thoughts on why this addiction start. Addiction stems from numbing pain. What is your pain? Its a difficult question but one that must be tackled cause merely white knuckling and NOT doing the bad things doesn't fix the issues. To truly heal you need to get to the roots.