Hi Al
I'm glad that I found this place. My name is Paul and I'm 32 years old atm, started using porn at the age of 11. After that I didn't stop there and started abusing other stuff like alcohol and drugs. So far I have been clean of those for over 6 years. However, PMO is still here and strong. I also started to meet with prostitutes due to lack of gf's over the years ( there were a few short relatioships, but nothing serious). This only made my self-confidence go down even more. I never really thought of porn in terms of problems - oh, thats just a habit which helps me to let go of stress, feel less lonely, nothing more. I only recently realised that it has a terrible effect on all aspects of my life, especially relationships with other people. Since that, I tried a couple of times to stop using porn but my max was 7 days of reboot. This week I tried once more and I made it to 5 days, relapsed yesterday and abused twice, today once. I don't want to give up, however I feel that my intentions are wrong - as if the change itself wasn't the goal, just amazing sex after the reboot. I feel that may be the main cause, but I'm not sure how to change that mind set.
Grateful that I can be a part of this community, take care
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I'm glad that I found this place. My name is Paul and I'm 32 years old atm, started using porn at the age of 11. After that I didn't stop there and started abusing other stuff like alcohol and drugs. So far I have been clean of those for over 6 years. However, PMO is still here and strong. I also started to meet with prostitutes due to lack of gf's over the years ( there were a few short relatioships, but nothing serious). This only made my self-confidence go down even more. I never really thought of porn in terms of problems - oh, thats just a habit which helps me to let go of stress, feel less lonely, nothing more. I only recently realised that it has a terrible effect on all aspects of my life, especially relationships with other people. Since that, I tried a couple of times to stop using porn but my max was 7 days of reboot. This week I tried once more and I made it to 5 days, relapsed yesterday and abused twice, today once. I don't want to give up, however I feel that my intentions are wrong - as if the change itself wasn't the goal, just amazing sex after the reboot. I feel that may be the main cause, but I'm not sure how to change that mind set.
Grateful that I can be a part of this community, take care
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