Hey, Time. It's quite normal to feel good and peaceful, and when our minds don't feel that, we reach for a way to calm the storm. For us, we just have some unhealthy coping mechanisms we're trying to unlearn. That is all.
You had a few days- but as always, our minds are going to calm and come back down to baseline. This is the perfect time for you to be more mindful today, to be aware.
The good news for you is that you can identify a very stressful day or week as a danger zone for you. Meet it with mindfulness, and have some other healthier things ready at the end of a week, that will help you relax and unwind safely.
But you're not starting at rock bottom, because you started swinging at this thing- so you're in the fight. Count the days before when you were abstinent as part of your victory, don't discount your progress. It's not all lost, as you might think.
Walking out this victory with you, brother!