HOCD, escalation and suicidal thoughts

This is by far the worst period of my entire life. But what can I do? The only solution is to push forward, but with all this sh*** going through my head is so damn hard. I'm alone in this thing, I can't tell anyone because it's still a taboo subject with porn and I'm sad that I can't live a f****g normal life like anyone else. I can barely have the motivation to do basic things in my daily life.
 

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Hey Robert,

Your story has really resonated with me. I can't claim to have experienced everything you have mentioned, but I can tell you that my anxiety and depression has lead me to be consume a lot of porn I never thought I would. I am constantly questioning my sexual orientation because I watch a lot of gay porn but don't seem to be attracted to men in real life.

I am so sorry you are experiencing this. It especially broke my heart to see you talk about the loneliness and suicidal thoughts/attempt. I hope you get out of this ok, and I wish you the best of luck in your reboot journey. I'll certainly be following your thread.
 
Update: I'm in the worst moment of my life. I can't take it for much longer... I feel like my old self died 6 months ago. I will end my life if quitting porn will not help till the end of the year. It's sad that from a man with some dreams and some energy to change his life from 3 years ago I become this.
 
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