Andrew Wiggin
Member
I'm 22, I hate porn, I hate masturbating, and yet I've been watching it and doing it for over three years now.
I love running, I love writing, I'm in university and I just started dating the girl of my dreams. And I'm scared. I'm scared of losing all of this for a few minutes of selfish, stupid, sterile pleasure.
Since covid started, I began to think that I might have become an addict, and since then I've been trying to reboot, without actually being very conscious about it. That is probably one of the reasons I keep on falling... that I don't consciously accept I'm an addict and that I need help.
Last night was what got me into trying these forums. I'm reading Gary Wilson's book, I've been writing papers at university on pornography awereness to raise an alarm and fight this issue, but then I have nights like yesterday: Non-stop porn watching and masturbating from 3am to 6am. I'm exhausted right now obviously. And I'm sad, and I'm scared, and I want to finish with this.
There is a quote that goes like this: "You remember what you want to forget, and you forget what you want to remeber" Right now, this is my reality. I remeber all the crap I watched over night, but I can't remember my girl's laugh, or her face, or her sweet beautiful voice. And that hurts, that burns, that stings.
I don't want this. But I can't fight alone.
I would love to talk.
Thanks for taking your time to read this.
Andrew Wiggin
I love running, I love writing, I'm in university and I just started dating the girl of my dreams. And I'm scared. I'm scared of losing all of this for a few minutes of selfish, stupid, sterile pleasure.
Since covid started, I began to think that I might have become an addict, and since then I've been trying to reboot, without actually being very conscious about it. That is probably one of the reasons I keep on falling... that I don't consciously accept I'm an addict and that I need help.
Last night was what got me into trying these forums. I'm reading Gary Wilson's book, I've been writing papers at university on pornography awereness to raise an alarm and fight this issue, but then I have nights like yesterday: Non-stop porn watching and masturbating from 3am to 6am. I'm exhausted right now obviously. And I'm sad, and I'm scared, and I want to finish with this.
There is a quote that goes like this: "You remember what you want to forget, and you forget what you want to remeber" Right now, this is my reality. I remeber all the crap I watched over night, but I can't remember my girl's laugh, or her face, or her sweet beautiful voice. And that hurts, that burns, that stings.
I don't want this. But I can't fight alone.
I would love to talk.
Thanks for taking your time to read this.
Andrew Wiggin