Worldlit Recovery Journal 2.0

worldlit4213

Active Member
Day 1

Hello everyone. I had a recovery journal that I stopped logging onto a few months ago I think because I just got bored of it and didn't see improvements anymore from attending to it daily. But since then my no P-streak of several months that I built with the help of the forum has been broken. So, I'm deciding to come back to the forum and restart. I've made great progress so far. I'm 21, and I started watching P when I was 10 or 11, and my addiction got to the point of PMO 4x a day, every day, for a couple years. Now, I'm doing PMO once every 3 months or so, which is huge for me. I'm building up resilience and I can feel the temptations coming less and less often and my brain healing slowly. I've really built up the habits to prevent temptations to P, but the spontaneous temptations that come up are still there every now and then. But I'm improving. And I think coming back to this forum will help with that. It's summer vacation for me now, so I have more time to focus on this stuff. I'm praying that by the end of this summer (8/30) that I'll get the full reboot and 4 months of P and MO free. That is the goal here. To make it through this summer clean. I got a full plate, so hopefully that will help me stay focused. I may not be doing daily update, but I will be doing at least a weekly one where I'll basically do a journal entry reviewing my days and noting significant things.
 

worldlit4213

Active Member
Day 8

Week 1 went by rather smoothly. Nothing major to note. My summer schedule and plans have been keeping me occupied which is great. I'm doing things that are productive, that I enjoy, and that fill up my time. Lots of reading, spending time with friends and family, church, studying, exercise, and healthy eating. Crazy how much my daily life has changed since I first got on here around November. Lots of new good habits and less bad habits. Will update again next week.
 

Chris Oz

Well-Known Member
Day 8

Week 1 went by rather smoothly. Nothing major to note. My summer schedule and plans have been keeping me occupied which is great. I'm doing things that are productive, that I enjoy, and that fill up my time. Lots of reading, spending time with friends and family, church, studying, exercise, and healthy eating. Crazy how much my daily life has changed since I first got on here around November. Lots of new good habits and less bad habits. Will update again next week.
Yes that's the reality of recovery. When we begin to recover from porn, not only does it free us from being a slave to fantasy, it improves other areas of our lives, and give us the motivation to want to be better people resulting in better habits.
For me I see that I have more focus on my career, and I've began loving excercise, that's a huge impact for me. I've also realized how I do more self seeking than I ought to.

Congrats on a week, wishing you more

Keep pushing back!
Chris
 

worldlit4213

Active Member
Day 1

Well I made it almost two weeks but relapsed this weekend. It's usually around the 10-15 day mark that I hit the "wall" where a bunch of temptations and urges come up. Thankfully I'm able to identify the reasons why I relapsed this time. My sleep schedule was bad, wasn't lifting, and just wasn't taking things seriously. But I'm fixing that this week. I'm lifting again (lifted this morning), fixed my sleep schedule (waking up early to lift), eating healthy, uninstalled video games, deleted some apps, and being more focused on my productive activities. I stopped lifting last week because my lifting partner was injured, and I usually don't lift solo. But I'm gonna have to figure out a solution because obviously I can't be dependent on a lifting partner for my well-being and recovery. I have some ideas though. Anyway, kinda disappointing to fail two weeks in but I'm still optimistic and I'm taking things more seriously now. Fixed the mistakes, hopefully things go more smoothly around that 10-15 day mark and I can make it to week 3.
 

Chris Oz

Well-Known Member
Hey wordlit. I do work outs too. One thing that helps me is Rap music. Mine is more of gospel/Motivational rap. I listen to NF and Abstract. And I find that it really helps me get into the mood and take me through my sessions. It's like a partner for me. You should try it.
 

worldlit4213

Active Member
Day 9

Things are going well. The first week is usually easy for me. I started getting more temptations yesterday, but I'm doing well fighting them off. Thankfully, I'm going out Thursday morning to a Christian retreat where there won't be WiFi. This will help me get through that wall I mentioned since I'll be cut off from the internet and certainly occupied. I'm more disciplined now, I find it easier to shew away sexual thoughts and to refocus and be motivated to do well. I've been hanging out with friends more, eating healthy, exercising, and learning. Things are going positively, it's up to me to make the most of this and achieve recovery. My goal is 90 days.
 

Fappy

Respected Member
sounds great, well done. 9 days is alot, no matter what it looks like on paper. i think if theres one place that would just be weird and creepy to PMO it would be at a christian retreat! (cringe...) hopefully the time there will be another few days under your belt and a few more steps away from that dreaded day 0.
 
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