Will slow down or even reverse my PIED recovery?

hervesta

Member
I am thankfully at an almost 180 day streak to heal PIED, and I have been avoiding all porn like the boogieman. However this morning I accidentally saw a porn PFP on youtube and though I did not get aroused (which would have worried me had I not known that other porn addict recoverers noticed they don't get aroused to porn anymore) I still am worried that it set me back merely by looking at it and feeling a sense of shock and fear. Will that set me back in healing? Or is it sign that I actually am unwiring from porn? (that same morning I got a chub to the mere mention of sex in a book I was reading, that has not happened since middle school for me.) It's a shame too because this happened when I started to notice I was coming out of a 1 month flatline, I just don't want this to effect me at all, especially since I think I may be close to healing...
 

Sangiha

Member
You are overthinking this. If you only saw it for a brief moment, dont worry and keep on with your reboot. How is your PIED progress over the 180 days? Are you healed? If you are when did you start noticing it?
 

hervesta

Member
You are overthinking this. If you only saw it for a brief moment, dont worry and keep on with your reboot. How is your PIED progress over the 180 days? Are you healed? If you are when did you start noticing it?
Well it was not for a brief moment, I had called out the person (It was on a religioius program and he was harassing people) and reported the pic to google. My PIED healing progress keeps going up and down really, last month I had 12 days where it basically was gone fully, then I had another wet dream and went into somewhat of a flatline and have been for almost 30 days now. Though this flatline is actually not as bad as my last 2, in this one I still get chubs and semis randomly but my libido has been dead (until these last 2 days). I know I am close to healing soon I just don't want anything to set me back at all, and it worries me that somehow this event will set me back a couple months if not fully...
 

Fappy

Respected Member
congrats on the 180 days! thats a real acheivement. dont worry at all about that breif encounter with porn. it wont be detremental to your reboot. why? because you didnt actively seek it out. had you had the desire to look at porn then went about looking for it, that would be a different story. but through no fault of your own it just happened to jump out at you. and you felt nothing which is a great sign. you shouldnt be aroused by porn, nor by the people who star in it.
 
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