I've been broadcasting myself on webcam sites on and off for over 13 years now. I can't believe the number of times I've tried to quit and failed. Every time I try I feel like I've finally drawn a line under it, only to find myself doing it again days or weeks later. I'm undeniably happier and more at ease when I'm not doing it, but any resistance I thought I had just vanishes. I can't keep doing it. Writing a journal is a step I've yet to try, so hopefully this will help.
Welcome to the nation and congratulations on taking further steps towards a healthier you.
You have taken s big step seeking help from outside of yourself.
I struggled for about 20 years constantly managing to stop for a while but finding myself back doing it.
Yourself and I kept going back cause we never addressed WHY we were doing it.
Addictions stem from pain. What is your pain? It may be a harder question to answer than you originally think. I k on it was and still is for me but I am still working through my stuff.
Use the forums but also educate yourself as much as you can on addiction.
Try and figure your triggers. Work on self love and practice mindfulness. Maybe try speaking to people you can trust in the real world?
I started SAA recently and its helpful. Not 100% sold on it but giving it ago.
These are just suggestions though. This is your journey and you need to take the steps that you feel are right for you when you are ready.