My story and determination to fix this

goofy

Member
Hi everyone. I just found this site recently. I had heard of YBOP years ago but dismissed it. That doesn't matter to me, I never had any issues. Well, after years of degenerate porn usage, often for hours at a time, edging, talking and video chatting with horny women all the time... I now know everything about the dangers of porn was true. And here's how.

I am 28 years old and in moderate shape. I have some health issues, but nothing that should affect my ability to have sex or penile function.

Recently I had noticed my dick was not working at all. I could NOT get erect by myself on most days. I had no morning wood. If I fired up some porn, I could get an extremely hard erection without fail. When hours prior I could not get one at all by myself. This made me wonder.. wtf is going on. My labs check out normal. Certainly nothing remotely like anyone would a limp dick would have. It made no sense. Occasionally I would even have trouble getting it up with porn, but that was very rare. My refractory period became extremely long and I stopped ejaculating for the most part because of it.

I had an opportunity to fuck a really hot girl recently. My dick(not to brag, but it is large) looked like a tiny, useless limp penis. It was pathetic. I did not even attempt to fuck her. The difference of my useless dick to my erect dick was probably 10 fold. You'd have bet your entire life savings that my fully erect dick was not remotely near as large as it is from how 'dead' my penis felt. I had no idea what the hell was going on. I now get it. My years of severe porn use has destroyed my life and ability to function. A week ago I deleted all porn accounts, I have no intention of every looking at a single image of porn for the rest of my life. I am humiliated that I let myself get this far. I was edging for hours per day, often going weeks without cumming, but watching porn for hours and hours. I have now learned this is extremely dangerous.

I have cut it it all out, permanently, and I am never going back. I don't care if this doesn't work, I am not putting myself in that position EVER again. That was humiliating and a wake up call.

6 days in and I have been waking up in the middle of the night with somewhat of an erection. This has not happened in months/years. Still no morning wood, but my dick is not totally lifeless. I hope this is what I need to help get my life in order. I cannot believe the similarities in the stories I am reading.

Thanks for all of the info I've found here already. It has been keeping my mind in a much more optimistic place reading the success stories. Knowing I am not the only one who is disgusted and humiliated with themselves and that people are truly healing is all I need to stick with this.

-Goofy
 

goofy

Member
Day 7-8 ish. Noticeable erections in my sleep, especially if I wake up in the middle of the night sleeping on my stomach. My dick is still lifeless during the day, but I've had more morning erections in the last few days than I have in months. Things are looking good if this is just the start. I sure hope so.
 

goofy

Member
Day 11 and 12 led to wet dreams in my sleep. Woke up with an erection just from thought as well. The wet dreams seem to be sending me into a deeper flatline at times. I wish I could stop them, hopefully this is not setting me back too much.
 

goofy

Member
Day 18 I had a double wet dream. I added in vitamin b6(p5p) to lower prolactin levels after reading about a thread on nofap regarding b6 and flatline. I also started getting nude sun exposure during the day. I believe they are what caused it. Day 19, another wet dream. I believe this is my 5th wet dream in the last week. Crazy. Waking up in the middle of the night with a partial erection now. Remarkable considering my dick was completely dead, even in my sleep, just a short while ago. This shit is working. I still don't feel very good overall but I am getting some tiny glimpses of my dick possibly working again, so I am very optimistic.

I did have a dream where I was watching porn which is disappointing, but nothing I can control. The rest of the wet dreams I was with a woman. I did cum really quick in all of those dreams, like it felt like a matter of seconds before I came. I do struggle with premature ejaculation issues.
 

goofy

Member
Day 26 or so. Yesterday had a huge wet dream. Today I woke up having to urinate with very stiff morning wood for the first time in YEARS. The only time I've had morning wood this stiff was a few weeks ago when I took cialis- so I don't really count that. It went away right after urinating but it's certainly a good sign.

I'm still in major flatline, very little libido and my dick is mostly dead during the day. My flaccid size has increased and I am getting some occasional signs of arousal, typically only in the middle of the night.

I definitely feel like crap the day after a wet dream. Maybe 20% as much as PMO, but certainly sets me back nonetheless. Hopefully they stop.
 

goofy

Member
Day 29.

Woke up with morning wood. Felt like crap all day, took a nap at 7 pm for an hour. Woke up with STIFF morning wood. There is no way this is a coincidence. And I don't think it's because I am not ejaculating, I believe porn is the issue. The reason I say that is I have gone months without cumming before(outside of wet dreams) and never had morning wood- I was watching porn all the time and edging. Now that I have completely cut out porn I am getting some glimpses of morning wood.

I have gotten a LOT more female attention in the last week than I have in years. There is no question about it. Hot women approaching me for no reason other than to strike up conversation. Hard to believe this is actually happening but it is.

I am still suffering mostly from dead dick syndrome outside of when I am sleeping. I have some occasional hints of arousal, but nothing significant. So that is disappionting, but I know that decades of porn usage is not going to reverse in my brain in a month. This is going to take time, and I will not go back to that degeneracy ever again. I don't care if this takes a year.
 

goofy

Member
Day 32. Woke up with very stiff morning wood, had to pee and it would barely go down. Then shortly after falling asleep I had a wet dream. Felt drained today. Did get aroused thinking about a woman I used to sleep with many years ago. Slight movement in my dick which was a good sign. Still frustrating because I have basically dead dick syndrome during the day. I have had days where my flaccid dick looked huge recently, but back to being dead and lifeless for now.

It's normal that my dick is coming back to life while I'm asleep but is totally dead during the day early on in my reboot, right? Frustrating, I wish I could get that huge morning wood erection with a woman. I'm scared to try for now, even if I pop boner pills. But just knowing that it is POSSIBLE even while sleeping is encouraging.
 

goofy

Member
Day 37 ish.

Met a woman yesterday, went on a date today, made out with her and had a massive erection for the entirety. I did take 5mg of cialis prior to the date just to help things along if needed. It definitely worked, regardless, a month ago cialis did absolutely nothing so clearly I was able to get aroused.

The bad news. Tonight she called me and we talked for awhile and I did stroke my dick for a few minutes thinking about fucking her while I talked to her. Big mistake. I can't believe I was that stupid. Hopefully this doesn't send me into a downward spiral. It was only a few minutes, but I am exhausted after a long day and should have just went straight to sleep. I feel like a total moron for doing that and hope it did not reset my progress, which overall has been pretty great.
 
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