Just a quick update. Still going strong. The last woman I was sort of casually seeing didn't work out, now I'm on the apps again. Because I still don't know these people I meet, I take 5mg of tadalafil before I think there's a chance of sex, which isn't a very high dose, and my dick works fine. I occassionally get morning wood. I don't think I'm fully recovered but I also basically don't have any urges at this point.
I think I'll be able to taper this off too once I regularly see someone and tell them about my situation. That'll help with rewiring. I'm also happy about the fact that I find women who arent "perfect" by porn standards really really attractive. Porn really messed with my sense of "normal".
Gym is going well. I'm also looking better which is helping my confidence. I still waste too much time but I'm working on it.
Day 2. I'm out of town with friends and a girl so I'm probably not going to relapse. But i hate that I'm in a position where i have to worry about pied. When I'm back, i need the resolve to stay away from porn. It steals so much of my sex drive.
Day 17. I had sex with my (sort of) girlfriend yesterday. I haven't told her about the extent of the pied. I took 5 mg of cialis before and I could have sex. I'm worried im developing a psychological dependence on this.
Day 18. I masterbated to fantasies yesterday. I'm on a no P streak only so this was okay. My therapist said to not put too much pressure on yourself and have substitute behaviours like masterbating, so i guess I'll try that approach. I really feel bad urges to watch some P today, its a weekend. I'm going to shower and get myself out of the house asap.
Thanks @FiveFortyFour. It's day 19. I had sex yesterday, still needed the pill. I would occasionally lose my erection, which was annoying to my girlfriend. tried the karezza thing where I didn't cum. Hopefully I get better soon.
Me acabo de registrar por consejo de alguien aquí, me he encontrado con tu hilo y es genial, gracias por tantos detalles y tanta sinceridad, lo estas logrando, y vas a terminar por lograrlo totalmente.
También decirte que igual podrías probar el hard mode, asi te evitas caer mas veces, y el reinicio suele ser mas rapido, quizas no te haga falta estar mas de 90 dias, o incluso 30 dias, aun asi, tu eres el que lo esta logrando, sigue asi.
Domina a tu mente para dejar de tomar tabletas, un abrazo.