I’m feeling really all over the place mentally, and finding it hard to work. I keep wanting to jerk off/ watch porn. Gotta do my best to stay away from this stuff today, I want to keep the momentum going
Day 18. I’m feeling a lot more stable right now which is great. There’s also this background feeling of becoming too casual, not taking the reboot seriously and casually MO’ing or watching some porn. Gotta focus on being mindful.
I ended up edging and eventually MO'ing today. My gf told me she's dealing with an infection and so we probably can't have sex for a week or more. And i sort of used that as an excuse to masterbate. I'm not feeling really guilty, but don't want to make this a habit.