Reclaiming the present

MattMan17

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I 100% agree with this, and find it very relatable in my own journey / struggle with the addiction to pornography (and masturbating for that matter). When it comes to orgasm, its the most pleasurable (and easiest) experience a person can have, and so it can easily become a dangerous cycle of consuming/masturbating all the time, because its a quick release of a huge amount of dopamine at once. And porn just makes that 100x worse.
Good points in what you said though, I'm so glad you brought this up, it's important to remember and sometimes easy to forget.

Also, kudos for making it to Day 18 and keep pushing yourself for 3!
 

Dannybou

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[Day 21]

All is good. I'm being more productive generally.

I masturbated a couple of times yesterday because the horniness was getting to me, but it was to my imagination. Frankly, if it was something that a caveman could have done I don't see it being very harmful to me.

I genuinely feel like the hold that porn has had on me is slipping away.

This book that someone linked - https://www.easypeasymethod.org/ has been useful as well. It reminds me a lot of Allen Carr's book on quitting smoking which had helped me kick that habit in the past.
 

Dannybou

Active Member
[Day 24]

I've noticed that I'm thinking a lot more sexually about random women that I see. For example, I was at the eye doctor today and I was trying to ignore the sexual thoughts about the female doctors walking around. It's a bit annoying because I don't want to be sexually objectifying every cute girl that I see but it also feels preferable to just watching porn and not being attracted to real-life women at all.

I'm also feeling a lot more aggressive than normal which is.. different.
 

Dannybou

Active Member
[Day 25]

Just 5 more days and it'll be a whole month without porn. That's pretty great, I'm quite happy with this. I have no real desire to get back into it because it steals so much energy and drive from me.

Other things that I also want to cut down - Reddit, youtube, random websites that give me tiny hits of dopamine and take away my attention. I've installed website and app blockers on my phone/ laptop but the urges to use them are still there.
 

Dannybou

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I relapsed. I have no idea why I relapsed. I just couldn't sleep and was bored. It was really dumb of me.

We start again
 

Dannybou

Active Member
[Day 4]

I'm back on day 4. I've noticed how much less "healthy" my dick feels after that stupid relapse. Plus I'm on dating apps now which could lead to something, so this greater risk of PIED really sucks.

Anyway, I don't have any urges to watch porn. Fuck porn. I just want to have a functional dick and normal levels of energy again.
 

Flesh

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I think I've heard this kind of social media is very "reward system" relayante, maybe be carefull about your brain tricking you into using this tool as a substitute for dopamine kicks. I'm just throwing this out there, maybe make some research about that. Good luck on ur journey !
 

Dannybou

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That's true, thank you for the suggestion! It's probably not as bad as porn, so maybe I can get away with just limiting my use of it to specific times in the day or something.
 

Dannybou

Active Member
[Day 6]

No real urges, or maybe I'm just internally dead set against porn right now. Have a date today, after a long while.
 

Dannybou

Active Member
[Day 7]

I had a nice time, I'll probably meet her again. If I was jerking off to porn I probably wouldn't have had that motivation to put myself out there at all. I'm very thankful for this forum, the people on it, and all the resources people have put online to help me and others get past this addiction.

One day at a time.
 

Dannybou

Active Member
[Day 10]

I feel quite flatliney. Can't do too much but ride it out.

Also, jeez I forgot how hard online dating is. A real life attractive girl has so many options on these apps that even minor screw-ups/ saying slightly awkward things seem to get me ghosted. I can understand why I would previously turn to porn, where I could virtually look at even more attractive women and pick any one of them, whereas getting with such a woman in real life takes much much more effort.

Idk if porn has conditioned my brain to only right swipe on women above a certain attractiveness either, or whether this is normal for me. But regardless, I'm determined to stay with real human interactions and away from porn.
 
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Dannybou

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[Day 11]

Heavy day of squatting at the gym and my dick is showing signs of life again! I've not really been thinking about porn for the past 11 days, but I know how sneaky it can be.
 

Dannybou

Active Member
[Day 12]

Another day of not exposing myself to hyperstimulating unrealistic ultra-convenient bullshit done.
 

Dannybou

Active Member
[Day 16]

No urges, but my dick is deader than a dead fish for the past couple of days, seems like this is the dreaded flatline.
 

Dannybou

Active Member
[Day 18]

No urges, my body and energy levels feel fine. I've been going to the gym recently and really spending a ton of energy there, it's becoming a fun little addiction though I'm still objectively quite weak.

Still in the flatline.
 

Dannybou

Active Member
[day 19]

No porn as usual, I think Ive developed such a hate to it emotionally that I'll probably not use it anymore.

I'm also realising that being connected to the internet all the time, always checking for notifications, emails, social media, youtube videos, whatever has been eating away at my attention span, and also exposes me to porn triggers. I'm going to try to spend at least an hour a day completely unplugged and to slowly try and extend that time.
 
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