Iwantthesecondchance
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@Orbiter thank you for your words of encouragement, brother. Thank you for continuously supporting and being here for me. Yes, I had 98 days of PMO, and even though it was hard to keep going sometimes, in general, it was pretty awesome to feel getting closer to the goal.
I like round numbers, and I could have reached 100 days streak in the last year continuing into the new year, but, instead, I have just hit Day 2 of my new journey. It is a pity that one single chain of mistakes can ruin so much. Of course, even though I like round numbers and it is always pleasant to hit some milestones, I feel that the ultimate goal of this journey is much more important. Looking back at my journey of 98 days being clean, I can tell that I learnt that I can do even more and that it is possible to stop watching porn and break the addiction.
Also, I got some consistency in my two new habits (both are old habits which I had put on pause for good or bad some time ago) - video gaming (I reinitiated it approximately a half year ago) and doing sports (started while on my PMO abstinence journey). It would be great if I would break the first one during this year, too, but would continue with the second one. I feel good after my training sessions, and I am a bit sad that I stopped it earlier. Now I am skinny fat with the worst combination possible (almost no muscles but still a lot of fat, not enough though to be called simply fat), but I can see a very slight increase in muscle mass. It is still great taking into consideration my bad schedule, poor diet and absence of any equipment). My goal for 2025 will be to lose some or major part of this fat and get a bit more muscles. I don't plan to go to gym, so moderate goals still resonate well with me.
Also would be great to improve my sleep. I will keep diet improvement for 2026.
There is definitely a big work area to be achieved on my psychological state of mind.
First, I did not even want to break my streak, but was easily manipulated into it. So, I need to learn to always stay focused and cold-minded. I do not have any clue on how to do that but it is something to discover in the new year.
Second, my previous message about my failure tells a lot about my impulsive nature, my inability to accept mistakes and extreme self-criticism. I think that I took this failure very close to my heart, because I truly regarded this goal as one of the highest-priority goals for me and failing in it meant that I was thrown to the part of the journey, which was already covered by me. Even if it is not the starting point 98 days ago, but 5, 10, 20 or 50 days ago, yet it makes me more distant from my goal. And it is a shame. Nevertheless, I should not have reacted so furiously, and I have to learn to love myself even though sometimes I make silly mistakes. Instead, I need to find ways to avoid these mistakes in future and reward myself for achieving new milestones.
Happy New Year, everyone! I wish you success in your journey and to win the victory!
I like round numbers, and I could have reached 100 days streak in the last year continuing into the new year, but, instead, I have just hit Day 2 of my new journey. It is a pity that one single chain of mistakes can ruin so much. Of course, even though I like round numbers and it is always pleasant to hit some milestones, I feel that the ultimate goal of this journey is much more important. Looking back at my journey of 98 days being clean, I can tell that I learnt that I can do even more and that it is possible to stop watching porn and break the addiction.
Also, I got some consistency in my two new habits (both are old habits which I had put on pause for good or bad some time ago) - video gaming (I reinitiated it approximately a half year ago) and doing sports (started while on my PMO abstinence journey). It would be great if I would break the first one during this year, too, but would continue with the second one. I feel good after my training sessions, and I am a bit sad that I stopped it earlier. Now I am skinny fat with the worst combination possible (almost no muscles but still a lot of fat, not enough though to be called simply fat), but I can see a very slight increase in muscle mass. It is still great taking into consideration my bad schedule, poor diet and absence of any equipment). My goal for 2025 will be to lose some or major part of this fat and get a bit more muscles. I don't plan to go to gym, so moderate goals still resonate well with me.
Also would be great to improve my sleep. I will keep diet improvement for 2026.
There is definitely a big work area to be achieved on my psychological state of mind.
First, I did not even want to break my streak, but was easily manipulated into it. So, I need to learn to always stay focused and cold-minded. I do not have any clue on how to do that but it is something to discover in the new year.
Second, my previous message about my failure tells a lot about my impulsive nature, my inability to accept mistakes and extreme self-criticism. I think that I took this failure very close to my heart, because I truly regarded this goal as one of the highest-priority goals for me and failing in it meant that I was thrown to the part of the journey, which was already covered by me. Even if it is not the starting point 98 days ago, but 5, 10, 20 or 50 days ago, yet it makes me more distant from my goal. And it is a shame. Nevertheless, I should not have reacted so furiously, and I have to learn to love myself even though sometimes I make silly mistakes. Instead, I need to find ways to avoid these mistakes in future and reward myself for achieving new milestones.
Happy New Year, everyone! I wish you success in your journey and to win the victory!