Hi Guys,
I wanna start my reboot process with this journal and share my experiences. I am very inspired by the members here, those who have been successful, those who continue on with a commitment to reboot.
I started PMO when I was 16 or 17 as soon as high speed internet arrived, I wonder if high speed internet sales were driven by PMO in those days. I did have my suspicions and fears about this, how addictive it was, I even consulted a doctor, read stuff online. I was of the opinion that there is nothing wrong with it and it can be healthy at less frequency, the doctor (not a specialist) just mentioned that occasional rests will be needed just in case of any other muscle. Little did I know that I was walking into a trap, Soon it felt addictive, PMO was necessary for sleep, to handle stress, to have fun, to fend off boredom, to not be lonely and a whole for a lot of reasons. I might have been regular on PMO, multiple sessions or atleast once everyday for the past 12 years. Everything went fine until recently I started getting weaker erections for porn. I am 28 now. I have experienced this once before and it lasted just a few days, I assumed that my body needed to regenerate the resources as I probably over consumed them. But this time, it has been a week since I have had a strong erection for porn. I have always (ever since I can remember, except for occasional morning wood in teenage) noticed loss of erection upon standing up, which all adds up to my list of worries. I am 28 now. The desire for porn and sex remains, but there is no arousal. I feel that my body has gone low on resources and my brain has become desensitised.
Based on posts here and other online data, I have concluded that PMO is no longer an option. It needs to be cut off from my life, I have tried this in past, even in my teens, just because of my suspicions and hatred for this addictive habit. But, I was always unsuccessful. At times, I made peace with it, considered it as normal. But, I realise now that it is completely unnatural to have a relationship with your hand and a screen. It is a disastrous consequence of technological advancement combined with lack of awareness, carelessness from nation states.
I wanna start my reboot process with this journal and share my experiences. I am very inspired by the members here, those who have been successful, those who continue on with a commitment to reboot.
I started PMO when I was 16 or 17 as soon as high speed internet arrived, I wonder if high speed internet sales were driven by PMO in those days. I did have my suspicions and fears about this, how addictive it was, I even consulted a doctor, read stuff online. I was of the opinion that there is nothing wrong with it and it can be healthy at less frequency, the doctor (not a specialist) just mentioned that occasional rests will be needed just in case of any other muscle. Little did I know that I was walking into a trap, Soon it felt addictive, PMO was necessary for sleep, to handle stress, to have fun, to fend off boredom, to not be lonely and a whole for a lot of reasons. I might have been regular on PMO, multiple sessions or atleast once everyday for the past 12 years. Everything went fine until recently I started getting weaker erections for porn. I am 28 now. I have experienced this once before and it lasted just a few days, I assumed that my body needed to regenerate the resources as I probably over consumed them. But this time, it has been a week since I have had a strong erection for porn. I have always (ever since I can remember, except for occasional morning wood in teenage) noticed loss of erection upon standing up, which all adds up to my list of worries. I am 28 now. The desire for porn and sex remains, but there is no arousal. I feel that my body has gone low on resources and my brain has become desensitised.
Based on posts here and other online data, I have concluded that PMO is no longer an option. It needs to be cut off from my life, I have tried this in past, even in my teens, just because of my suspicions and hatred for this addictive habit. But, I was always unsuccessful. At times, I made peace with it, considered it as normal. But, I realise now that it is completely unnatural to have a relationship with your hand and a screen. It is a disastrous consequence of technological advancement combined with lack of awareness, carelessness from nation states.