Lost in the wild

[Tango]

Here is my trigger mantra, for when I feel urge:

* I am a disciplined MAN and 10 years of PMO is enough, I want to put this behind and find success in life

1. PMO causes physical degradation of brain functions.
2. Having sex with screen and hand is a habit of a looser, its unnatural, disgusting and a sickness.
3. If I proceed, my brain and nuts won't work, I will be cock blocking myself with the one I love.
4. Loss of masculinity

 

[Tango]

I have made gym a part of my life now, still battling to keep phone out of bed even though I don't PMO, battling to block out fake rewards like Netflix, games on smartphone.

 

[Tango]

Kicking out anything that gives instant rewards/ gratification

 

[Kraken]

Keep up the momentum Tango, sending you long distance encouragement! You are enough and are making progress. Nice call on going to the gym, that has helped many other rebooters.

 

[Tango]

I have learnt a lot of new techniques in this journey but when I fail, I still fail damn hard. Execution or implementation is a whole other journey.

Leaning to process stress, anger, emptiness and other difficult emotions is getting difficult after cutting out all those fake rewards.

I guess I never learned that as all those years I used fake rewards such as TV, games, PMO to suppress or manage emotions too.

Fucking hard to rebuild, but its the only option

 

[Tango]

Rebooting is no longer about abstaining from PMO, its about resetting the balance in your brain chemicals.

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I am still suffering to maintain balance, I have so much to live for but using unhealthy rewards has fucked up my brain .

Many of my plans to change my behaviours has not resulted in consistent success due to my lack of ability to follow through.

 

[Tango]

Day #0: Starting the process again, the journal that I have is very helpful now , pphewwww

 

[Tango]

Day #1: I will focus on work, mindfulness and other chores today, to keep myself busy.

 

[Tango]

Day #0:

Don'ts: alcohol, meat, TV / media content except educational, staying up late at night, never bring phone into bed, avoid procrastination.

Do's: workout everyday, meditate everyday, wake up early, do the chores, eat healthy, keep mind calm and conscious, be loving and caring to others, go against lazy, comfort seeking wishes of the heart.

If I break any do's or donts, penance will be to meditate for a long time, act more on do's and avoid donts.

 

[NYC]

Day #0:

Don'ts: alcohol, meat, TV / media content except educational, staying up late at night, never bring phone into bed, avoid procrastination.

Do's: workout everyday, meditate everyday, wake up early, do the chores, eat healthy, keep mind calm and conscious, be loving and caring to others, go against lazy, comfort seeking wishes of the heart.

If I break any do's or donts, penance will be to meditate for a long time, act more on do's and avoid donts.

Hang tough, many of us have been at it, dont despare, give yourself grace and want it for yourself first and foremost!

 

[Tango]

Day #0:

Don'ts: alcohol, meat, TV / media content except educational, staying up late at night, never bring phone into bed, avoid procrastination.

Do's: workout everyday, meditate everyday, wake up early, do the chores, eat healthy, keep mind calm and conscious, be loving and caring to others, go against lazy, comfort seeking wishes of the heart.

If I break any do's or donts, penance will be to meditate for a long time, act more on do's and avoid donts.

 

[Tango]

Extreme work schedule extending into the night aggravated dopamine cravings, used PMO again to get me to sleep. Felt completely powerless

Next time this happens, I will try a shower instead of PMO


Day #0:

Don'ts: alcohol, meat, TV / media content except educational, staying up late at night, never bring phone into bed, avoid procrastination.

Do's: workout everyday, meditate everyday, wake up early, do the chores, eat healthy, keep mind calm and conscious, be loving and caring to others, go against lazy, comfort seeking wishes of the heart.

If I break any do's or donts, penance will be to meditate for a long time, act more on do's and avoid donts.

 

[Tango]

Day #0:

Don'ts: alcohol, meat, TV / media content except educational, staying up late at night, never bring phone into bed, avoid procrastination.

Do's: workout everyday, meditate everyday, wake up early, do the chores, eat healthy, keep mind calm and conscious, be loving and caring to others, go against lazy, comfort seeking wishes of the heart.

If I break any do's or donts, penance will be to meditate for a long time, act more on do's and avoid donts.

 

[Tango]

Day #1:

Don'ts: alcohol, meat, TV / media content except educational, staying up late at night, never bring phone into bed, avoid procrastination.

Do's: workout everyday, meditate everyday, wake up early, do the chores, eat healthy, keep mind calm and conscious, be loving and caring to others, go against lazy, comfort seeking wishes of the heart.

If I break any do's or donts, penance will be to meditate for a long time, act more on do's and avoid donts.

 

[Tango]

Day #0:

Don'ts: alcohol, meat, TV / media content except educational, staying up late at night, never bring phone into bed, avoid procrastination.

Do's: workout everyday, meditate everyday, wake up early, do the chores, eat healthy, keep mind calm and conscious, be loving and caring to others, go against lazy, comfort seeking wishes of the heart.

If I break any do's or donts, penance will be to meditate for a long time, act more on do's and avoid donts.

 

[Tango]

Day #0:

Don'ts: alcohol, meat, TV / media content except educational, staying up late at night, never bring phone into bed, avoid procrastination.

Do's: workout everyday, meditate everyday, wake up early, do the chores, eat healthy, keep mind calm and conscious, be loving and caring to others, go against lazy, comfort seeking wishes of the heart.

If I break any do's or donts, penance will be to meditate for a long time, act more on do's and avoid donts.

 

[Tango]

Day #1:

Don'ts: alcohol, meat, TV / media content except educational, staying up late at night, never bring phone into bed, avoid procrastination.

Do's: workout everyday, meditate everyday, wake up early, do the chores, eat healthy, keep mind calm and conscious, be loving and caring to others, go against lazy, comfort seeking wishes of the heart.

If I break any do's or donts, penance will be to meditate for a long time, act more on do's and avoid donts.

 

[Tango]

Day #2:

Don'ts: alcohol, meat, TV / media content except educational, staying up late at night, never bring phone into bed, avoid procrastination.

Do's: workout everyday, meditate everyday, wake up early, do the chores, eat healthy, keep mind calm and conscious, be loving and caring to others, go against lazy, comfort seeking wishes of the heart.

If I break any do's or donts, penance will be to meditate for a long time, act more on do's and avoid donts.