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Tango

Member
Day#3 : Wow!!!! Three consecutive days without PMO :)

I am able to shoot down triggers again, also my mind warns of thoughts that are protential triggers well ahead. I will continue to train my mind this way.

I really want to experience how 15, 30, 60, 90 days without PMO will feel like.
 

Tango

Member
Day#4: Successfully went through without PMO

There was a bigger trigger last night, it was a craving for PMO to have some fun, like missing it; However, I shot it down. Building streak helps, porn beast was made to starve yet again :)

Gonna be working on getting back standing erection:
Kegels twice a day, reducing belly fat, healthy diet.
 

Tango

Member
Day#0: I relapsed, MOed for fantasy.

Happened due to low defence at night, triggers were due to a new series that I watched :(

Not gonna watch any movies, series anymore.
 
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Tango

Member
Day#0: Relapsed.

I was in a flatline, felt completely sexless, without any love for anything. PMOed to feel alive I guess.

I realise that it was withdrawal that got me this time. Reading about withdrawal and experiencing it are quite different.
 

Vicarious

New Member
Day#1: Successfully went through without PMO
Hi Tango, I've just read the whole thread and I can tell you some things that may help you.

First of all you are doing it really really well, this is not a thing that will dissappear from one day to other so stay strong and try hard every time you relapse.
My porn addiction affected my sex encounters since I lost virginity with 17, and dumb me I blamed my partners (I didn't know porn could cause this mess) now im 25 and fighting this addiction from almost two years now.
Your mind can trick you in an endless type of ways so be always aware and realize that 5 minutes of "pleasure" can lead you to one week of suffering.
Be always proud of yourself, you are not trying, you are CAPABLE of doing it.
 

Tango

Member


Hi Tango, I've just read the whole thread and I can tell you some things that may help you.

First of all you are doing it really really well, this is not a thing that will dissappear from one day to other so stay strong and try hard every time you relapse.
My porn addiction affected my sex encounters since I lost virginity with 17, and dumb me I blamed my partners (I didn't know porn could cause this mess) now im 25 and fighting this addiction from almost two years now.
Your mind can trick you in an endless type of ways so be always aware and realize that 5 minutes of "pleasure" can lead you to one week of suffering.
Be always proud of yourself, you are not trying, you are CAPABLE of doing it.
Thanks for the comment, 12 years is a long time, I've given enough to PMO, its time for new things, better things that will not numb my brain. Its time to experience pleasant things in life.

Lets make this beast starve to death.
 

Tango

Member
Day#2: successfully went through without PMO.

Weekend is here, gonna be vigilant. Gotta plan out both days to have some fun.
 

Tango

Member
Pasting into journal as a reminder, gotta work on this

 

Tango

Member
Day#5: Successfully went through without PMO

There was a complete lack of interest to do anything in first half of the day, not interested in work or watching movie or playing video games, brain was numb. Going for a long walk in evening helped bring back focus.
 

Tango

Member
Day#7: successfully went through without PMO.

Everyday feels like a funeral for my penis, trying to move on from it. Get it out of my mind.

This morning, I felt a sudden urge to progress in my career, it felt good to be motivated and driven.
 

Tango

Member
Day#0: Relapsed

Triggers: staying up late at night, watching the prime series "Dom" which had extreme level of triggers.

Triggers defeated:

This was preceded by some arguments that did make my day go well, work targets are behind schedule, didn't go for my usual long walk.
 

Tango

Member
Day#0 : I ve been relapsing for past two days. These are due to old triggers lingering in my head.

I started watching a new series, it doesn't have triggers but its so good. Binging this series somehow weakens my resolve. I am gonna stop watching it.
 
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