I am going to end 14 years long hidden nightmare

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Jeks

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Hey puggler, i have a question,
are you always testing? So what i means is, do you always masturbate a little to see, if there is a reaction?

I am just asking, because, apart of you psyching yourself probably out, you gotta be careful. First it increases the chance of relapsing, which you probably know, but also its considered a form of edging, which might hinder your progress. Even if its just a few minutes a day, if you do it daily or just often, it adds up. I would recommend you to resist the temptation to test, so your hardmode is truly without any self-induced sexual arousal and your dopamine-receptors can properly heal. Also it just leads to unnecessary high sexual energy levels.

www.yourbrainonporn.com

What if I masturbate (edge) or watch porn without orgasm?

Edging is masturbating up to the edge of orgasm, then stopping to cool things down, then revving up again. It is unhelpful for rebooting.
www.yourbrainonporn.com www.yourbrainonporn.com
 
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Puggler

Puggler

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Hello Jeks. Thanks for the recommendations, I dont masturbate I sometimes touch myself to see the progress. Today I touched myself and i had hardes bonner for past 15 years without pills. I think touching yourself doesnt ruin progress. But what you say ot has some kind of effect but not so bad effect
 
Puggler

Puggler

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Day 63

Day statistics:
Morning wood: 70%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 05:24
Libido: 3/10
Mood:above average

Today I touched myself while lying down and i got hardest boner for my past 15 years of life without ed pills. It lasted like 25 minutes while i kept touching. This process really works. Lets see what happens when i will have orgasm
 
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Puggler

Puggler

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Day 64

Day statistics:
Morning wood: 50%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 07:25
Libido: 2/10
Mood:average

Today I have bad day of PIED. But now even in my bad days my Penis is full and warm, this fact reduces depression.
 
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MoreCoinfident

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Puggler said:
Day 23

Day statistics:
Morning wood: slight MW
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 09:18
Libido: 1.5/10
Mood: average

Hardmode definitelly helps getting your penis more sensitive. I feel its fuller and im less depressed but, i will be still depressed unless i will have successful sex with my gf. Its eating my brain. I need sex desperately, even if its with pills, i dont care. The point is i need to feel that Im on the right track to stay with my gf for life.
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Does viagra dont work with PIED for you? have u had succesfull sex able to penetrate when u quit porn?
 
Puggler

Puggler

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Viagra worked at thr beginning. Then it slowly stopped working. I think its because when you getting healed its stopps working. I dont know when it will start working again. I hope in 25 days it will
 
Puggler

Puggler

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Day 65

Day statistics:
Morning wood: 0%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 08:20
Libido: 2/10
Mood:average

Back to dead dick again. Coldness and shrinkage increased a bit but not same level as previous. The biggest improvement is that when i lay down in bed, no matter how zero libido i have when i touch myself i get hard as rock every single day. This is a big improvement for me!
 
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Puggler

Puggler

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Day 66

Day statistics:
Morning wood: 70%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 04:17
Libido: 3/10
Mood:average

I feel libido increasing. but feel a bit coldness down below
 
Puggler

Puggler

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Day 67

Day statistics:
Morning wood: 0%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 08:20
Libido: 0/10
Mood:average

Everything back to zero.
Dead, lifeless dick. Shrinkage increased a bit. A bit more coldness
 
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zackergeet

Active Member
Puggler said:
Day 23

Day statistics:
Morning wood: slight MW
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 09:18
Libido: 1.5/10
Mood: average

Hardmode definitelly helps getting your penis more sensitive. I feel its fuller and im less depressed but, i will be still depressed unless i will have successful sex with my gf. Its eating my brain. I need sex desperately, even if its with pills, i dont care. The point is i need to feel that Im on the right track to stay with my gf for life.
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Stay strong Puggler, I know you can do it, lift weight and eat healthy so your body is ready when your brain is ready. We have to remember that our problem is in the mind not down there.
 
Puggler

Puggler

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Day 68

Day statistics:
Morning wood: 70%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 08:20
Libido: 4/10
Mood:average

Libido boosted to 4 again. I touched myself i got rock hard! After the dead dick syndrom of couple days i got hard again. I start realizing that the real healing happens when you have dead dick. It literally recovers the energy
 
submissivetoGod

submissivetoGod

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Dear Plugger, I have read your diary: simply let go of your body, let it go. Intimate contacts with your girlfriend are medicine, they don't bring you back, only PMO can do it, otherwise every post on this blog would be FALSE! and it isn't, believe me. Heal with her if she knows about your addiction and accepts it. Your brain may rewire itself with abstinence, but you still potentially remain an addict for the rest of your life. I repeat, for now only she is your medicine, not the pills, not the PMO. Thanks for your valuable narration.
 
Puggler

Puggler

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Day 70

Day statistics:
Morning wood: 0%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 09:42
Libido: 0/10
Mood:average

Back to zero. Coldness increased, shrinkage increased.
 
submissivetoGod

submissivetoGod

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Puggler said:
Day 70

Day statistics:
Morning wood: 0%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 09:42
Libido: 0/10
Mood:average

Back to zero. Coldness increased, shrinkage increased.
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Dear Plugger, Even as I progress into my second 90day harmode strip (I'm at 83 days), I consider each day to be ZERO. You are doing well. I am with you on this journey until the end of our days on Earth.
 
Puggler

Puggler

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Day 71

Day statistics:
Morning wood: 0%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 09:20
Libido: 1/10
Mood:average

I tried Tadalafil 15 mg, after trying my hard to fantasize about my girlfriend I achieved hard erection for 5 minutes and it faded. After resting 5-10 minutes fantasized again and achieved hard erection as well. I understand that my libido is getting back slowly. After the erection i didnt feel super shrinkage just like before. Im hopeful more and more
 
submissivetoGod

submissivetoGod

Member
Puggler said:
Day 71

Day statistics:
Morning wood: 0%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 09:20
Libido: 1/10
Mood:average

I tried Tadalafil 15 mg, after trying my hard to fantasize about my girlfriend I achieved hard erection for 5 minutes and it faded. After resting 5-10 minutes fantasized again and achieved hard erection as well. I understand that my libido is getting back slowly. After the erection i didnt feel super shrinkage just like before. Im hopeful more and more
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Dear Plugger, why do you still use Cialis? Have you tried Karezza with your girlfriend? And if she's not there, I understand the sexual urgency or attempts to ascertain erectile function, but you'd better wait for the natural end of the long flatline (DAY 84) without despair. I am close to you. Right now I'm in full flatline but I don't lose focus: no PMO, only real contacts with women. This is the real hardmode. We'll make it.
 
Puggler

Puggler

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The point is im in relationship with my dream girl and I prefer finding hard ways to keep it, rather then go on hardmode forawhile and ruin it. Im gonna win it!!!
 
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