I am going to end 14 years long hidden nightmare

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Good luck in your streaks! I'm working for my improvement too.
 
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Hello My dear friends! its been almost a year I haven't logged in the forum. now I understand why there are so many rebooting stories but not successful stories so much, this is what Gary Wilson had been saying before he passed away. "once the rebooters getting cured, they dont sign back to the forum to write a success story.

NOTE: I haven't fully recovered, BUT!!!: the progress is drastically good! so let me say:


Since past year the first biggest improvement I felt was in march 2022. for around 21 months I had had worst situation, no sign of life, depression psychosis, even 100 mg sildenafil wouldn't work for 21 full month!. even if I tried to imagine the deepest porn scenes I couldn't get erections. my dick was extremely shriveled/shrunk and cold with white skin. I had super attractive girlfriend but whatever she could do it didnt turn me on. I had literally hell while trying to have sex.

now Im on 1030th day of reboot, the things are drastically different:

* My depression is 1000000% gone, even I want to say I had been struggling with depression since age 16 (when I started watching porn) and I never understood why, now its all cleared up.
* very strange thing what I noticed is that my skin is very clear
* Im 100000000000% sure that workout may not cure you but it boosts up your curing speed and here is why - currently my libido is very high and I cannot resist to masturbate a lot weekly, when its too much I get like masturbation hangover and on mornings I have a killer headache, but when I workout at gym the next day I literally wake up like Frodo with sunshine(not even exaggerating) no headache and I feel something like I'm on the good drug or antidepressant. I feel 0 anxiety and even listening to music, breathing and walking gives me extreme satisfaction(this is related to dopamine regulation from workout) NOTE: workout will not cure instantly but what I thing it may reduce recovery time by 30%. for example if you workout daily you may get cured in 2 years instead of 3 years without workout.
* one biggest improvement is that girls are very attractive to me now. I haven't felt this since age of 16-17
* while I'm thinking about someone from real life I get hard erection, even while I'm standing I get it. it was practically impossible before. and the strength of erection depends on how much I masturbated in recent days.
* masturbation has a slowdown effect for sure. NOTE: it will not worsen your situation like porn but it will slow down your progress, to much masturbation gets me back to mini flatline like 2-3 days. before this progress, masturbation get me back to 2-3 months of flatline so this is a big deal for me.
* another thing what I can say and the biggest one is that life without porn changes you drastically, it will destroy your self doubts, depression and anxiety, life is good without porn, it literally makes you a different person.

* lastly, the best news, FORGET EVERY DOUBT, YOU WILL BE CURED! I haven't gotten completely cured and you may ask why can I trust you or how can you be so sure. here is the thing, when I started reboot journey, I had soo bad situation that literally I couldn't feel my penis, mentally I had extremely extremely bad situation, no attractiveness to girls, right now when I think about it I'm very scared to get back to the day 1st of reboot journey, I can get erections by just thinking about sex, can you imagine how good it is? also my penis is 95% times full, warm, thick etc..
when im out of mini flatline I literally can masturbate 3-4 months daily and I get only 2-3 days mini flatlines, while in my darkest times one masturbation used to send me to 2-3 months of flatline. also another effect is something like literally changing in your mind, let me say, you dont get confident about sex, you are just thirty of sex, when I was in the beginning of my reboot, I had zero confidence and I used to think I will get confident later on, but when you are getting cured you dont think about confidence then, you only think about how tasty would be a good sex, you just crave for sex, when you think about sex, it gives you very good sensation and hunger literally, also another good think is when you masturbate or have sex you dont feel depleted, headache or anxiety, instead you get the same feeling like you have after a good meal, full and satisfied.
another argument I have is that Im afraid of thinking something sexual because im not used to control it(because Its been a very long time i havent had real libido) so even if I think about something sexual, I get very big urges to have sex/ masturbate (but not about watching porn)
now I understand how I was a real slave of porn, and I had been living in a dark, depressive world.
another argument, I have an online friend from reboot reddit page, he is from brasil and he has been helping me already more than a year without any single payment or anything, what he really asks me is to help others to defeat this hellish sickness, he used to reboot for a fucking 6 years!!! and finally he got cured!

If you still have doubts some info about me:
I used to use porn for 12 years and I was literally impotent for fucking 12 years from 16 to 28, I thought I was faulty or something. and I was not just a regular porn user, I was a heavy porn user. when I used to binge use porn I would continue fapping every day unless my libido depleted till zero and used to go to months of zero libido. now I feel something like I havent felt for 12 years. I had severe depression and anxiety. literally severe for these 12 years, I couldnt sit on a chair without repeatedly moving my legs and feeling extreme headache and depression. now Im super calm and I havent had this kind of good responsiveness to sexual thoughts, it literally gives me hard erection, only thing is it doesnt last long without manual stimulation, so I think even another couple of years will completely cure me. Im saying couple of years because I prefer to aim for a long time rather than say in a month i will be cured. it can be literally in one week but im not hurrying.

also whats my thoughts are and I STRONGLY BELIEVE is that, PIED is not a sickness/illness, it doesnt damages anything, what it does is literally just using all of your sexual energy. its just like mana points from games which recovers very slowly. I strongly extremely strongly believe in that. all people have their libido pool like mana pool. for example you have 1000 mana point pool on default. you need at least 800 mana points to have very good erection and sex. every time you have sex you lose 200 points of mana, then it slowly recovers. but when you watch porn and masturbate it will make you lose 300-400 or 500 mana points. and the worst part is that when you have go to zero mana points and still masturbate to porn ,what it does further is reducing your mana recovery rate to lets say 0.5 mana per day. this is why it takes sometimes years to go back to 1000 standard points. and if you workout daily it may boost your mana recover to 0.8 mana points per day.

Lastly, I beg you guys do not despair, Ive been in your shoes. do not focus on how long will it take for you to recover, instead TRUST THE PROCESS! and focus on the belief that it will cure you 100%
Good luck!
I will keep you posted!
 
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also another BIG recommendations which I used to get during my worst times.
KEEP OFF YOURSELF FROM FORUMS, you can just come and read successful stories or journals like this, but its something like box of chocolate, you never know what kind of person will write the journal. here is what kind of encounters I experienced and it literally drove me crazy:

1) people who cheat and then cry like pussies to make you more depressed - I have seen people who write rebooting journals literally like ages. like 5+ years and you know what I used to see in their journals? they peek, they watch porn they dont resist porn, and after watching porn they got so desperate and angry that they sign in the forum and sayin, omg this doesnt work, ive been rebooting for 5+ years and im still in bad situation! when I used to read this kind of shitty EXTREMELY SHITTY PEOPLE because they dont realize this contidion is so bad that someone can hurt themselves if you write very bad things, it literally gave me extreme depression, I couldnt even breath, I had extreme panic attacks. so avoid these kind of shitty people
2) drug abusers - these kind of people literally think that crack, meth and marijuana will kickstart their libido. I was extremely shocked when I read about someone who sincerely thinks using meth will improve his libido. It literally has worse effect than porn, I have seen someone who wrote that he is in this situation for fuckin 9 years and cant get out of it. and he describes that he used meth very often to kickstart libido. avoid these stupid guys as well
3) third one and the worst, worst, the wooorst ones, literally satans - there are people on the forum who will text you that you will never be cured. they are BIG LIARS, I have encountered so many of them I was shocked and I had panic attack. once one guy texted me something like this " hey you understand that this forum is shit and we are incurables? just imagine something like this way, you are in a better situation than a wheelchair user, they cant walk and cant have sex, so be grateful that you can walk at least and accept that you are incurable". I clearly remember that day, It was spring 2021 and I was walking in street when I read that message and I had extreme panic attack, I instantly ran to a bench and lied down for awhile, couldn't brief and almost started crying.
another encounter I had was i received someones message, she was saying that she was a girl sending me link to porn with the text hat its her. she literally wanted to ruin my progress.
4) lastly the most pitiful people, I call them petty cured ones. these kind of people post stupid successful stories like, hey i rebooted 1 year, 2 year, 3 months and this is success because I breath well, I sleep well, I drink water well, they typically don't write the words "I SUCCESSFULY HAVE SEX EVERY TIME". these people are so bad that they literally make you lose hope that successful stories are real shit. they make them shit with their stupidness. for instance, here I am, when I get cured I will write the best success story without weird sentences and I will write " I have sex every time without problem"

remember guys my words, avoid forums. you have to avoid somehow!
 
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one day I will be completely cured and what Im going to do is continue helping a lot of guys because I consider myself one of the worst case, as I have 12-14 years of experience in PIED. Literally my PIED started so early that I didnt know what was to have a normal erection by now, I didnt understood I had problem or not because I never had sex or erection after the age of 15 till 28. But when I faced the fact that I couldnt get it up in front of the sexiest girl ever, that was a huge shock. so when I get cured everyone else will have hope and drastically decrease the depression.
wait for it guys and have a trust in it!
You will be cured
 
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Thanks for sharing your story. If you still need 2-3 days to recover after masturbating, you may want to masturbate less for a while. You don't want to slow your excellent progress.

In other words, be sure you are hearing your libido, and not your cravings. Cravings often end up causing a longer hangover. That's not a big problem, but it means you probably need to heal some more.
 

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And after all of these latest posts if you still dont believe me and still have doubts here is what Im gonna ask you. Please overview my 2020-2022 posts. You will see there how depressed I am. Im miserable and cannot think clearly due to extreme depression, and now I can dance like nobodies watching 🤣🤣
This is the best gift and proof I can give you guys to kill your depression - My mood! If it doesnt help you then I dont know what will 😂
 

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Thanks for sharing your story. If you still need 2-3 days to recover after masturbating, you may want to masturbate less for a while. You don't want to slow your excellent progress.

In other words, be sure you are hearing your libido, and not your cravings. Cravings often end up causing a longer hangover. That's not a big problem, but it means you probably need to heal some more.
Absolutely agree. Thanks for replying.
The thing what I strongly believe is that if I do 90 days reboot I will be instantly cured forever. But the thing is achieving 90 days hardmode is practically impossible for me, because after 1 week my libido is crazy like a dog 🤣🤣🤣. I remember in the beginning of my reboot it was very easy to to 90 days reboot. Now its impossible because Im almost cured. The longest streaks I have recently had without masturbation was 44 days. It was 5 months ago. And now i can not resist more than a week. If I do my best I can do maximum 10 days, but after 10 days Im something like: when I feel about sex my libido is becoming hulk and want to have sex or masturbate so hard! The best thing in this current situation is that I want to masturbate or have sex and im disgusted with the porn. Instead of porn cravings I want to fap or have sex.
 

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Oh and another Huge improvement which I missed and its very important - premature ejaculation. It improved drastically. During my reboot I was also depressed because I ejaculated literally in 30 seconds and I couldnt find any single posts about improved premature ejaculation. Right now what I notice is the length of masturbation before ejaculation is drastically increased. i dont last like 30 minutes or 1 hours but I definitely fall into really normal range.
Also one good thing is I have better control of stopping ejaculation and the one factor plays a big role in it - the head of penis is very inflated. During my worst time even if I had erections with sildenafil or naturally, my penis head was always small, like 100 times out of 100 encounter. Now its 100% full. Even I can say I have never seen my penis head to be as big as now.
 
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Frankly speaking I dont exercise often, but I exercise few times a week, sometimes a few time in a month, but the thing is next: when I was in the beginning of my journey, I couldnt feel the effects of exercise gave me. In fact it helped me but I couldnt feel it and here is why. The brain was so stressed and chemically imbalanced that it didnt make me feel well. But after a lot of attempts, avoiding porn and waiting, it upregulated its chemical imbalance. Now its literally enough to go for a cardio for 30 minutes that I feel instantly drastic effects like "runners high", improving my mood for whole day, improving sleep, and on morning I dont feel headaches.
What I strongly believe is that due to so many porns the brain is so stressed/opressed or bullied that it literally sends you to the "other side" just like in the TV series "stranger things". If you remember the term "a flea on a rope".
You are in the alternated world of this world, where you feel very bad. The air is toxic, its always dark and gloomy, no matter what you do, it always depresses you. I believe it is a fact because once I went to a psychiatrist he diagnosed me with a hidden depression. I remember I was so much used to this "other side" or the "bad world" (the brain was so stressed) that I thought I was feeling normal, meanwhile I felt very bad. During these 12-14 years it started making me feel bad in the beginning and at the end of these 14 years I was so used to this toxic condition, I didnt remember what it was to feel really good, just because I didnt remember it. It was 14 years before. Now after almost 3 years of reboot I literally dragged myself from that "other side" and I see DRASTIC difference.I live in a completely better world
 

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Just literally guys, read my 2021-22 years posts and see how depressed and miserable I was. And look at me, Im not a puggler anymore, Im the dancing puggler
 

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Here is another dancing gif 🤣🤣🤣. Sorry for flooding my post but this goofiness/childish actions will show many depressed guys here how happy I am and will help them to kill depression. look at me, Im about to get cured now! 😂😂
 

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In addition, I used to think about permanent damage which doesnt exist, the only thing what was permanent for me is that I broke up with my GF and I believe this is the only permanent thing 😂. I remember how depressed I was, I feared that one day she would leave me, because she was extremely attractive, but life is a very strange thing, in the end I broke up with her, and this fact made me think that life is extremely unpredictable, If someone could tell me 2 years ago that I would be the one who would break the relationship I would not believe him, Hell no, because what I was scare do mostly was that she would leave me. Now im single and soon will be ready to mingle
 
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