I am going to end 14 years long hidden nightmare

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Deleted member 17609

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Day 23

Day statistics:

Morning wood: slight MW
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 09:18
Libido: 1.5/10
Mood: average

Hardmode definitelly helps getting your penis more sensitive. I feel its fuller and im less depressed but, i will be still depressed unless i will have successful sex with my gf. Its eating my brain. I need sex desperately, even if its with pills, i dont care. The point is i need to feel that Im on the right track to stay with my gf for life.
I understand your struggle, I also feel like that sometimes. But believe me, we shouldn’t be desperate to have sex. Desperation and depression are traps we have to avoid while we’re rebooting. I don’t say this to minimize your depressive feelings… I’m saying this because it might be a long journey, and you want to be able to go through it all. With depression and despair, we become all-or-nothing, we want the reboot to work NOW, we want to be healed right away. That’s not how it works. It can take a lot of time. Is we have to approach this with a good mindset, and to be patient, humble and committed.

You can do this, man. Just try to be less desperate, and it will all go well.
 

Puggler

Active Member
Day 30

Day statistics:

Morning wood: average MW
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 08:00
Libido: 1.5/10
Mood: slightly depressed

Penis sensitivity is increased. Its fuller and warmer. Im still struggling with depression. Its my 359thday NOPMO. In 2 weeks im going 29 years old. I desperately need to cure this asap at least to the level where viagra starts working
 

Puggler

Active Member
Day 32

Day statistics:

Morning wood: 30-40% hard
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 08:00
Libido: 0/10
Mood: panic attacks, depressed

I was thinking of how happy id be right now if not PIED. Im thinking maybe this is permanent condition? But if i give up i have to kill myself. I have most beautiful girl who loves me so much that she cant even stay without me even a day. I will fight for her I swear. As long as she loves me, I will fight for thre cure. I have one guy on reddit who writes me regularly and encourages me. He told me that his flatline was almost 6 years. So earlier or later cure will come just to stick with the process. Even if I stay alone he told me that I will survive. He experienced the hell on earth and he helps me to go through it. And not to listen people who say tgis is permanent. He is my hero.

https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/ly3fjd
 

Puggler

Active Member
Day: Fuck my life

Day statistics:

Morning wood: Fuck my life
Exercise: Fuck my life
Sleep duration: Fuck my life
Libido: Fuck this motherfucker doesnt come back
Mood: Fuck my mood, my life, whole world

Fuck this sickness, fuck porn industry, fuck this world.
 

Puggler

Active Member
Day 35

Day statistics:

Morning wood: 90% hard!
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 08:00
Libido: 0/10
Mood: above average

My gf is on vacation in another country. I stopped checking for PIED stories and now I feel mood above average. Today I had hard MW. Sometimes when I lie down to sleep and I touch myself i get 80% hard too for a good time. But I cant achieve hardness while standing or thinking about sex. My libido is dead. Down im numb and shrunk. I hope i dont need to go hard mode full year or wait for several years.
 

Puggler

Active Member
Day 42

Day statistics:

Morning wood: 60% hard!
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 08:00
Libido: 0/10
Mood: above average

My libido in these couple of days is zero. Even below zero. I dont recognize any of woman sexually. I dont feel even tiny urge or libido. Total asexual. Dead with cold penis.
 

Puggler

Active Member
Day 45

Day statistics:

Morning wood: 0%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 08:00
Libido: 0/10
Mood: average

Did I die or something? Everything to zero
 
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Keep your head up and try to focus on positive things, don’t just think of the negative ones. Having faith in the process, being patient and staying away from despair are important components of a good reboot, don’t forget it. Rooting for you, man.
 

Puggler

Active Member
Day 49

Day statistics:

Morning wood: 0%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 08:00
Libido: 0/10
Mood: average

Total zero libido and sensitivity. Feels like my dick just died.
 

Puggler

Active Member
Day 51

Day statistics:

Morning wood: 50%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 08:00
Libido: 2/10
Mood: average

sensitivity is increased a bit. the shrinkage and coldness is away. and i can get slightly erected with fantasy and touching. I'm not totally dead down below. definitely slight boost of libido. I was blind all these years that i thought to had some kind of organic damage. definitely libido/brain issue. you cant have one day erection and another day dead penis if its organic.
 

Puggler

Active Member
Day 52

Day statistics:

Morning wood: 50%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 08:00
Libido: 2/10
Mood: Above average

Penis coldness is away. experiencing mild urges to fap.
 

Puggler

Active Member
Day 54

Day statistics:

Morning wood: 30%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 08:00
Libido: 1/10
Mood: Above average

total dead libido penis
 

Puggler

Active Member
Day 55

Day statistics:

Morning wood: 50%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 08:06
Libido: 2/10
Mood: Above average

I'm seeing signs of life. my penis is fuller and warmer now. i got erected for 2 minutes while thinking about my gf. its soft but at least i got erected with touching and thinking for 2 minutes.
 

Puggler

Active Member
Day 56

Day statistics:

Morning wood: 70%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 07:03
Libido: 2/10
Mood: Above average

Penis shrinkage and coldness is absent. I'm wondering if the next orgasm after 90 days will get me back to flatline or not.
 

Puggler

Active Member
Day 58

Day statistics:

Morning wood: 70%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 09:54
Libido: 4/10
Mood: Above average

What is this? I feel my libido coming back. I havent seen my gf for 1 month and she came back today. I definitely feel sometbing. She seems much sexier to me now. I touched her body and got 40% boner lasted 2minutes. I kissed her and again 40% boner. For the first time I realize what it is like to have strong wanting to have good healthy sex with her. I craved for sex today with my gf. Its kind a big thing. Im more hopeful now. The only thing im afraid is that after orgasm i may get back to flatline.
I feel again rebooting definitely works.
 
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Puggler

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When i got home i checked below and had a big amount of precum. I guess this is really a big sign of improvement as well. I guess my mind starting to realize that the girl is attractive! Im a bit more happy now. I have to win this
 
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Puggler

Active Member
Day 59

Day statistics:

Morning wood: 70%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 09:04
Libido: 2/10
Mood: average

Yah of course. Dead dick again. On morning i had better erections but now on evening zero reaction. Shrinkage and coldness are off through
 

Puggler

Active Member
Day 61

Day statistics:

Morning wood: 0%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 08:07
Libido: 2/10
Mood: average

The only thing i feel is that im less depressed and i dont feel Penis shrinkage and coldness. Im really scared post orgasmic condition
 

Puggler

Active Member
Day 62

Day statistics:

Morning wood: 0%
Exercise: 0
Sleep duration: 08:07
Libido: 2/10
Mood: average

i feel a bit more shrinkage and coldness than yesterday but not as shrink and cold as before
 
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