Artemus
Active Member
Day 2, (No PMO)
It's been a minute since I was on RN, I'm of the OG RN understanding on PMO, its all or nothing. Making compromises and allowances is dishonest and dishonorable to those who've achieved the, "HARD 90" and maintained it. I also don't agree with others POV in regards to whether this is an addiction or not, I don't think that is an accurate description, at least for me(YMMV). Addiction to me implies being unable to function without something, but I've proven multiple times I can function without PMO, so that's why I see it more as a sinful habit than addiction, at least IMHO. I will admit there were times in my past where I felt an animalistic drive to PMO, but I never experienced what would be described as withdrawal, no ED, no sweats, no shakes, no illegal activity to attain it.
In scripture there are some verses that deal with certain sexual sins and that if you engage in these activities that God will give you over to that sin. I think that is what happened to me and it wasn't until I "truly repented" and believed in "true faith" that things began to turn for me. For years I tried all the man made human strategies, but at the end of the day, no matter how caged off I made myself from PMO, I still wanted it. You see my heart was the issue and my heart needed a change that I myself couldn't provide. It took years, lots of tears and strife, financial distress and shame, but He finally got my attention and bowed my stiff neck.
I'm using RN this time as more of a chronicle for myself and have no intention of replying to others journals. Maybe that sounds selfish, but their are times in life where being selfish is required to save ones self. In order to save a drowning man you can't jump in with him while he's still flailing about or he'll drag you under too. Don't feel compelled to respond as I only post for my own benefit and to keep count of my progress.
It's been a minute since I was on RN, I'm of the OG RN understanding on PMO, its all or nothing. Making compromises and allowances is dishonest and dishonorable to those who've achieved the, "HARD 90" and maintained it. I also don't agree with others POV in regards to whether this is an addiction or not, I don't think that is an accurate description, at least for me(YMMV). Addiction to me implies being unable to function without something, but I've proven multiple times I can function without PMO, so that's why I see it more as a sinful habit than addiction, at least IMHO. I will admit there were times in my past where I felt an animalistic drive to PMO, but I never experienced what would be described as withdrawal, no ED, no sweats, no shakes, no illegal activity to attain it.
In scripture there are some verses that deal with certain sexual sins and that if you engage in these activities that God will give you over to that sin. I think that is what happened to me and it wasn't until I "truly repented" and believed in "true faith" that things began to turn for me. For years I tried all the man made human strategies, but at the end of the day, no matter how caged off I made myself from PMO, I still wanted it. You see my heart was the issue and my heart needed a change that I myself couldn't provide. It took years, lots of tears and strife, financial distress and shame, but He finally got my attention and bowed my stiff neck.
I'm using RN this time as more of a chronicle for myself and have no intention of replying to others journals. Maybe that sounds selfish, but their are times in life where being selfish is required to save ones self. In order to save a drowning man you can't jump in with him while he's still flailing about or he'll drag you under too. Don't feel compelled to respond as I only post for my own benefit and to keep count of my progress.
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