So guys I am back after a long holiday.
Sad to say, I relapsed yesterday and today. That's 2 straight days of PMO.
I last posted on Aug 15, said it was day 53.
So count it from there: my streak ends on day 69
Was it really P? No. Guess what...... I relapsed to Instagram pics!!!
An interesting perspective though: after 69 days of no PMO, the fact that I was aroused by sexy pics on Insta, is sure evidence of a recovering brain (agreed that it's partial recovery, but it still is better than before!)
But I do not feel self-pity, self-loathing any more. I have to reset my counter. But guess what, if I can make it 69 days, I can go still longer.
And here is an important reason why I should not despair and feel dejected: I draw inspiration from this streak of 69 days, longest ever in my life. And all the scientific knowledge I have gathered tells me one thing: the longer and longer my abstinence periods, the weaker and weaker my addiction pathways become.
So off to a fresh start.
I will keep posting regularly, at least once or twice a week.