I just enlisted an old SAA friend as an accountability partner, and I am trying out dating apps again. To avoid unnecessary triggers, I opted not to use Tinder and will try Bumble instead. I'll see if there's other more wholesome dating apps out there.
I'm getting a system going again. With my accountability partner, I agreed I will donate 5 dollars to charity whenever I intentionally use porn or try to circumvent the software. I'm working on de-conditioning my mind by quitting porn, and recondition my mind by dating, and I'm going to focus on some life goals, like completing my degree and buying real estate.
I'm feeling a bit sluggish right now. I am finishing my last 2 weeks at my current job, which I am burning out from, then I will take a week off before starting a new job. I'm also in the process of looking for a new apartment. Things are looking up!
Unfortunately, I did masturbate again this morning, and I finished while thinking about porn. Trying to stop masturbating seems like a futile battle I won't win right away because of my high sex drive. This is why I think focusing on dating will be more fruitful, and I'll try to fantasize more about healthier, more meaningful fantasies. Over time, I think my porn-induced sexual preferences will fade.
Quick Points
- Got accountability partner
- Using accountability software now
- 5 dollar consequence for porn use and circumventing software
- Focus on dating
- New job!
- Moving to new apartment
- Slip: masturbation w/ porn fantasies