This is my daily journal/log of my Reboot Journey; currently on Day 2 of not looking at anything Porn or otherwise triggering content. To further explain, my goal is to not look at anything intentionally NSFW content, such as videos, photos, stories, etc. Anything that I know will cause me to start feeling bad and like I want to start relapsing, I am not going to allow myself to look at.
Currently I am 28 years old, gay and married to my wonderful husband. I have been struggling with Porn addiction and Fapping since I was about 14 or 15 years old. Back when I was just getting into my habit, I would watch porn pretty regularly and for long periods of time. Over time, it got bad enough that I believe for me it caused my social anxiety to worsen, as well as other noticeable negative changes. I realized how harmful it was for the first time when I was still in high school and reached out to someone who I trusted to talk to about this. I tried to stop myself from this habit, but unfortunately it continued. Then in my early 20's I was in a relationship with someone for about a year and a half, and it wasn't until he broke up with me that I realized all of the serious problems and harmful negative effects that porn was causing me. Then I met my now husband and completely stopped watching any porn or masturbating regularly for the past 4 years. However, in the last 3 or 4 months, I have struggled with a lot of mental and physical health problems, and the stress from the covid-19 pandemic escalated everything. I fell back into my habit and have been fighting and doing everything that I possibly can to pull myself out of it and get back on track to not watching porn ever again.
1. No I did not use porn today.
2. Triggers today were caused by stress of working a lot & tiredness, although I fought through my triggers!
3. I focused on my work and distracting myself with other activities to avoid relapse.
4. I am so grateful for finding this awesome community of people; who I believe will help me on my journey.
5. Day 3
Currently I am 28 years old, gay and married to my wonderful husband. I have been struggling with Porn addiction and Fapping since I was about 14 or 15 years old. Back when I was just getting into my habit, I would watch porn pretty regularly and for long periods of time. Over time, it got bad enough that I believe for me it caused my social anxiety to worsen, as well as other noticeable negative changes. I realized how harmful it was for the first time when I was still in high school and reached out to someone who I trusted to talk to about this. I tried to stop myself from this habit, but unfortunately it continued. Then in my early 20's I was in a relationship with someone for about a year and a half, and it wasn't until he broke up with me that I realized all of the serious problems and harmful negative effects that porn was causing me. Then I met my now husband and completely stopped watching any porn or masturbating regularly for the past 4 years. However, in the last 3 or 4 months, I have struggled with a lot of mental and physical health problems, and the stress from the covid-19 pandemic escalated everything. I fell back into my habit and have been fighting and doing everything that I possibly can to pull myself out of it and get back on track to not watching porn ever again.
1. No I did not use porn today.
2. Triggers today were caused by stress of working a lot & tiredness, although I fought through my triggers!
3. I focused on my work and distracting myself with other activities to avoid relapse.
4. I am so grateful for finding this awesome community of people; who I believe will help me on my journey.
5. Day 3