Phineas 808
Respected Member
I'm admiring your tenacity and determination to beat this, Escape! You will. I really like what EW had to say about being compassionate to oneself, so true.
After a lapse, I'll feel like crap for at least 3 days (maybe as long as 2 weeks!), but the sooner I forgive myself- or accept the unconditional grace of God, as if He forgave me of all sins, past, present and future, the sooner I can move on, regain my footing (or try to) and go again.
Also, I share with you that past trauma of being picked on, or bullied. I have trauma from living on the streets as a run away teenager, as well (not that you said this). But, my "family of origin" was f***ed up to the nth degree, and that's where my emotional ties and drivers to this addiction had come from.
Standing with you.
After a lapse, I'll feel like crap for at least 3 days (maybe as long as 2 weeks!), but the sooner I forgive myself- or accept the unconditional grace of God, as if He forgave me of all sins, past, present and future, the sooner I can move on, regain my footing (or try to) and go again.
Also, I share with you that past trauma of being picked on, or bullied. I have trauma from living on the streets as a run away teenager, as well (not that you said this). But, my "family of origin" was f***ed up to the nth degree, and that's where my emotional ties and drivers to this addiction had come from.
Standing with you.