I feel you too brother. I got rejected soo many times with women. Now I don't even try. But one step at the time. As I am finding healthier ways of coping and working on myself. My luck has to change. It is psychological physics. The same I am seeing with my relationship with my mother. By just working on myself my relationship improved automatically without me trying to change or influence my mother. I am sure sooner or later I will attract the "right" woman in my life. Not totally sure how this will happen. But I believe it will. I am hopeful for the future.