I need to up my game.

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Escapeandnevercomeback

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Day 4

Tiredness and anxiety push me really hard towards porn but I must avoid touching that filth. The time is now! Time flies, you could still be an addict in 10-15 years from now, there is no tomorrow, it's "now"!
 
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Phineas 808

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Escapeandnevercomeback said:
Time flies, you could still be an addict in 10-15 years from now, there is no tomorrow, it's "now"!
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I can certainly be a proof of this, lol...! I think several factors for me kept me from escalating what I was doing to where it would be super-obvious that I needed help, but I think I knew there were issues for me as far back as the years 1994 and on...

My battles have changed over the years, and several behaviors were stopped, but there was still something relating to 'sex' or 'porn' in some form or other I've always wrestled with.

But overall, even counting decades, it's been really a trajectory of progress and victory, despite the lapses... What prolonged the fight for me was 'how' I approached my issues. Because I was so hard on myself, so self-condemning and shameful, that I found it hard to believe that I could be free.

When you start truly believing, and being kind to yourself (even in the face of a lapse), the easier it will become.
 
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Escapeandnevercomeback

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Phineas 808 said:
I can certainly be a proof of this, lol...! I think several factors for me kept me from escalating what I was doing to where it would be super-obvious that I needed help, but I think I knew there were issues for me as far back as the years 1994 and on...

My battles have changed over the years, and several behaviors were stopped, but there was still something relating to 'sex' or 'porn' in some form or other I've always wrestled with.

But overall, even counting decades, it's been really a trajectory of progress and victory, despite the lapses... What prolonged the fight for me was 'how' I approached my issues. Because I was so hard on myself, so self-condemning and shameful, that I found it hard to believe that I could be free.

When you start truly believing, and being kind to yourself (even in the face of a lapse), the easier it will become.
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I feel you, man. I've been trying to quit porn and masturbation since I was maybe 20 and I've known about porn addiction since I was around 25, it's been some years. I really don't want to carry this with me in my 40s. I haven't done much in my 20s to be honest and this bothers me, I could've been that much more productive that's why I want to do this in my 30s because it is what it is, I'm in my 30s now but like I said I don't want to have the same feeling at 40 that I have now.
 
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Phineas 808

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Escapeandnevercomeback said:
Day 6

The craving is getting intense.
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Ignore it like a nagging ex-girlfriend that you don't want to see. I know it can feel like 'life-or-death' at times, it coming from the survival part of our brain, but you can outlast any urge, and overrule any urges from the lower brain.

Think of the reward you'll feel when you go beyond your latest number of days...! If you lapsed, you're doing good in standing up to this thing, and you will eventually win, keep getting up and advancing!
 
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Phineas 808 said:
Ignore it like a nagging ex-girlfriend that you don't want to see. I know it can feel like 'life-or-death' at times, it coming from the survival part of our brain, but you can outlast any urge, and overrule any urges from the lower brain.

Think of the reward you'll feel when you go beyond your latest number of days...! If you lapsed, you're doing good in standing up to this thing, and you will eventually win, keep getting up and advancing!
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Thanks for the support, man.
 
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Escapeandnevercomeback

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Day 7

Last time I relapsed on day 5.

I'm tempted. I have a long history of edging in the morning and playing porn in my head and this needs to be addressed. This morning I could see porn pushing its way forcefully in my head and "playing in front of my eyes" like a fuckin 4k definition screen. It's like a trance. But I tried, and succeeded, to get out of it. However, only because the urges were small. Had the urges been massive, I would've been in a lot more trouble. I can definitely see the role of repetitive practices with this addiction and "cues" like the fuckin bell for the dog. The cues are all sorts of things like words, seeing someone, a place etc. We need to pay attention to this.

I work night shift and I'm trying not to relapse because that makes me lose my mood completely for tonight. I'm very tempted.
 
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Just an urge Escape, it can't make you do anything you don't want to.

Breathe through it, take a break from the devices and do something else til you're feeling better.

You got this.
 
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Escapeandnevercomeback

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Day 9

It's been a while since I've made it to day 9. I feel more active but the craving + urges are massive, man. I'm on the verge of relapsing in any moment. I feel that I can't resist the temptation.
 
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Robby82 said:
Come on man!!!It's all in your head think about the energy you have now and that will grow and think about how you will feel if you relapse and what for ?? stupid masturbation? Choose to live life not go through it i'm 24 days and i feel like god
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Damn, man! 24 days! You're doing great! Thanks for encouragement.
 
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Day 10

I feel better mentally but I crave porn and drinking. If I drink, I will fuck up this streak too, that's what always happens. I start convincing myself that I could handle a little bit of drinking without looking at porn and then game over.
 
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Try drinking but outside the home so that even if you are tempted you cannot watch porn drinking helps to socialize in the right way use it for that we must not deprive ourselves of the pleasures of life but learn to enjoy it to the best of our ability if you are already feeling better after 10 days it means that it works be strong and think about the energy you have you don't want to lose it and you can increase it !!!!
 
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Escapeandnevercomeback

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Robby82 said:
Try drinking but outside the home so that even if you are tempted you cannot watch porn drinking helps to socialize in the right way use it for that we must not deprive ourselves of the pleasures of life but learn to enjoy it to the best of our ability if you are already feeling better after 10 days it means that it works be strong and think about the energy you have you don't want to lose it and you can increase it !!!!
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Thanks for advice.
 
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