Understanding that the addicted brain wants the pleasure, not me, is a big step, I'm telling you. Because there was always this voice in my head saying "I like the pleasure, I crave the pleasure!" but it was actually the addicted brain's voice. My lack of understanding kept the addicted brain hidden in plain sight. It became one with me and it stole the pronoun "I" and used it against me. It's not "I" crave the pleasure but "it" craves the pleasure. I don't want the pleasure, I don't need it. We need time and patience and eventually things will settle.
I really like this, brother! Well said!