@Escapeandnevercomeback Haven't come to RN for awhile and just getting back. Man so proud of all you have conquered these last 35+days. I hope you have a great weekend and we all have your back! Thanks for continuing to post your journey
Hey, man, thanks for the words! I appreciate the support!@Escapeandnevercomeback Haven't come to RN for awhile and just getting back. Man so proud of all you have conquered these last 35+days. I hope you have a great weekend and we all have your back! Thanks for continuing to post your journey
Thanks for suggestions, man. I have to find something.Anything you can do to just change the routine a little? I feel like a lot of this for me is also just avoiding scripts my brain repeats over and over. So like if you go run errands or go workout right after work or something.
But I will ignore what happened because I actually feel great. I felt lethargic for two days but now for some reason I really feel good. However, I need to address the MO and alcohol, to avoid sabotaging myself.
I know what you're saying, man. Thanks.This is sometimes the best thing to do, just go on as if nothing happened- especially if you're not as focused on counting days.
The only thing to be aware of, which almost goes without saying: avoid repeating the behaviors for a period of time. The 'repeatability' is what sucks us into a habit.
You can say that what happened was already 'habit' getting the better of you by tricking you into responding to the urges (alcohol or P/MO), but there were over a month before this slip- and that's freakin' awesome! If you think about it this way, that was 1/3 of the way to changing these habits, as they say, it takes about 90 days to change a habit.
Just ignoring this (without the repeating of it) will be just like a speed bump, for the alcohol and the other p-related stuff. Just go on, and you'll be fine. Avoid 'black-and-white' thinking, like, "Man! This was supposed to be picture perfect!" Because our streaks aren't always picture perfect, just so progress is being made.
You got this, brother!
You've explained my situation exactly. Thanks for support!Hey man. I know what you mean with the alcohol and porn. Im working on both of those things myself. The alcohol for me definitely sends me into spiral of wanting to look at porn and fap. It has also led to many not so great moments in my life. I think alcohol was fun for me at first but then it became a way to escape from what was going on in life. I believe the porn and its negative effects also caused me to indulge in alcohol more which only hurt me in the long run. So I definitely understand and get where you're coming from.
Keep fighting man. Just prepare yourself mentally that things will get bad before they get better during this reboot but there's always light at the end of the tunnel. Troubles dont last always.
I appreciate the support, man, but things have not turned up well. More in the update I'm going to write.Stay strong man!!! Just think of it as a growing pain that is apart of the process. You're already 40 days in no need to turn back now. And congrats on 40 days.
I cant remember which member spoke of it but I downloaded the Quitzilla app last week and upgraded to premium which allows you to create as many counters as you want. Its counts down to the second. This was a help for me as I can track no pmo, alcohol or whatever it is and see the progress that im making. Keep fighting!!!
Quarantine and the lock-downs have destroyed people and that's just normal. This stuff is not mentally healthy for anyone. Most people are not handling it well. You're not alone. It's okay to feel like shit. Your job sounds miserable. It sounds like the emotional issues and work are the source of the pmo binging. I'm sure you already know. The best solution is maybe to change jobs if it isn't possible now, it is at least worth prepping for now.I could not control anymore how miserable I felt mentally and lethargic. The high anxiety, almost panic attacks and stress were too much. I work too fuckin much. We have personal problems and then you add people quarantined with covid and you get the idea. I found out yesterday I was going to work another extra day and I got depressed. I can't handle work and my fuckin battle with addictions. Not when I feel completely like shit. I craved fuckin comfort and pleasure and I ended up edging to fantasies then I moved to edging to some pictures. I haven't watched any porn video yet. A part of me wants to binge PMO but the other part of me wants to stop here. If by some miracle I manage to stop here, I am going to feel like shit anyway for who knows how many days. And just when I reported 40 days, man, fuck. Edging finally got the best of me, how shit do you want to feel overall and endure this shit and not look for comfort? It's fuckin inhuman. I have absolutely no idea how people handle this shit, I must have some serious issues then if I can't do it myself as well. Everything went absolutely amazing, I felt absolutely Superman and then around day 25 (?) I don't even remember, I started to gradually feel like shit. And slowly but surely I started to feel more and more miserable to the point where it was not anymore a matter of battling the urges, it was a battle with myself, it was not anymore about managing porn thoughts, I deliberately craved comfort and crossed all the red lines in my head intentionally. I don't know, man, I have to work 4 morning shifts and I have problems with sleep, I am afraid I might not be able to sleep tonight. I don't know what to say anymore man how the fuck am I going to look normal tomorrow morning for my two coworkers? ALl I want is to show how fucked up I am, I want to show my true image, I'm tired of this fuckin ego and "You can't look depressed, you can't talk about it, you need to look normal". I'm tired of this shit. I don't know, man, I might delete this.
You're right. This fuckin Covid shit has killed everything. I didn't understand shit from the last 2 years.Quarantine and the lock-downs have destroyed people and that's just normal. This stuff is not mentally healthy for anyone. Most people are not handling it well. You're not alone. It's okay to feel like shit. Your job sounds miserable. It sounds like the emotional issues and work are the source of the pmo binging. I'm sure you already know. The best solution is maybe to change jobs if it isn't possible now, it is at least worth prepping for now.
Yea, it's wrecked countless lives and it never seems to be enough for the managerial class because they keep pushing it.You're right. This fuckin Covid shit has killed everything. I didn't understand shit from the last 2 years.