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Escapeandnevercomeback

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Congrats on 33 days especially taking on your 2 demons at once. You are a warrior brother!
I really like your approach and outlook on this and I am so ready to embrace the suck like you and many others have. You're totally right after a relapse it is tough to get back to a good streak again. In April i reached 16 days before I fell off the wagon and since I have been stumbling and manged to only reach a streak 6 days. It's time again though I need to get back track. I am not focusing on a streak I am just focusing on the now day by day hour by hour fighting off the urges and not giving in this time. Next thing one hour turns into a day a day turns into a week and so on. I really love your simple approach to this.

Keep pushing brother we are all in this battle together. Never look back keep looking forward!!
Definitely. The thought of doing this for days and days, tens of days, might sound hard to tolerate. But we can tolerate the moment. Minute by minute.

Thank you for support.
 

Escapeandnevercomeback

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Day 35

5 weeks hard mode. I am tempted every day but I resist. Mornings are still the hardest when urges are the strongest.

I will probably stop counting day by day and I will go back to my "checkpoint system" that I had on the old website. Next checkpoint is 40 days.

Sometimes I can't believe how far I am, especially if I consider where "I come from". I had a period of drinking like crazy and binging porn, it looked like another wasted year without me being able to get out of that.
 
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Day 35

5 weeks hard mode. I am tempted every day but I resist. Mornings are still the hardest when urges are the strongest.

I will probably stop counting day by day and I will go back to my "checkpoint system" that I had on the old website. Next checkpoint is 40 days.

Sometimes I can't believe how far I am, especially if I consider where "I come from". I had a period of drinking like crazy and binging porn, it looked like another wasted year without me being able to get out of that.
Great job on making it to day 35. You are killing it man! I know what you mean about those morning urges they are tough but you got this. Be proud of how far you have come and never look back my friend.
 

yogi

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Escape keep up the good work.

Urges can come at different times for different people.
For me it was mostly evening time.

Even now, though I am abstaining and preparing for my exams, I continue to get these peculiar evening headaches that will then subside as night passes. I realise that these are urges manifesting as headaches OR they are withdrawal headaches, coz most of my PMO used to happen in the evenings after I return from work.
 

Escapeandnevercomeback

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Escape keep up the good work.

Urges can come at different times for different people.
For me it was mostly evening time.

Even now, though I am abstaining and preparing for my exams, I continue to get these peculiar evening headaches that will then subside as night passes. I realise that these are urges manifesting as headaches OR they are withdrawal headaches, coz most of my PMO used to happen in the evenings after I return from work.
Yes. The hardest urges for me are in the morning. Probably because of my history of waking up and masturbating to flashbacks and fantasies when I was about 13-14 and then edging to flashbacks in the morning and then moving on to PMO after I got high speed Internet.
 

Escapeandnevercomeback

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Great job on making it to day 35. You are killing it man! I know what you mean about those morning urges they are tough but you got this. Be proud of how far you have come and never look back my friend.
Absolutely. The temptation is still massive but I never want to go back to that shit. I don't want to wait 5 weeks again to get here, as long as I'm here, I might as well go on. It's not easy but it is what it is. Embrace the suck!
 

Escapeandnevercomeback

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I've been experiencing mood swings in the last three days. All day I'm fine until the evening when I have deep depressive episodes (I don't know why only the evening), feeling super depressed and miserable, no mood to talk to anybody...

Urges are strong. The porn dopamine is super sensitive, going wild with any small thought. I don't know, I guess I'm starting to see what's really like to go cold turkey for 5 weeks. It's very difficult.

I have trouble concentrating too. My brain functions slowly and I can barely get the words out. :confused: I guess I can say I'm struggling.
 
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Phineas 808

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I've been experiencing mood swings in the last three days. All day I'm fine until the evening when I have deep depressive episodes (I don't know why only the evening), feeling super depressed and miserable, no mood to talk to anybody...

Urges are strong. The porn dopamine is super sensitive, going wild with any small thought. I don't know, I guess I'm starting to see what's really like to go cold turkey for 5 weeks. It's very difficult.

I have trouble concentrating too. My brain functions slowly and I can barely get the words out. :confused: I guess I can say I'm struggling.

This, too, will pass. You're experiencing the lower brain kicking and sreaming for its dopamine. It feels like it will kill you, but it cannot! These urges cannot last, they will peak and then subside. Just view them nonjudgmentally, and breathe deeply through them. If they return, rinse and repeat.

The brain fog is hypofrontality, which is a lower blood flow to the brain's frontol cortex (for critical thinking and decision making), due to our feeding the survivalist lower brain all this time. This hypofrontality will correct itself after about 56 days of abstinence.

It will get better, just be very gentle and understanding of yourself.
 
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Escapeandnevercomeback

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This, too, will pass. You're experiencing the lower brain kicking and sreaming for its dopamine. It feels like it will kill you, but it cannot! These urges cannot last, they will peak and then subside. Just view them nonjudgmentally, and breathe deeply through them. If they return, rinse and repeat.

The brain fog is hypofrontality, which is a lower blood flow to the brain's frontol cortext (for critical thinking and decision making), due to our feeding the survivalist lower brain all this time. This hypofrontality will correct itself after about 56 days of abstinence.

It will get better, just be very gentle and understanding of yourself.
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Escapeandnevercomeback

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Manage the hypersexual thoughts! This is very important. Porn dopamine must be kept to a minimum. When we engage with the "porn in our head", fantasizing about porn, "watching" flashbacks and stuff, we make the dopamine go wild and it's very hard to resist after that. The porn theater from our head must be ignored. This has been a great help so far for me because, for the first time, I've made an effort to disengage myself from the porn fantasies/flashbacks in the first seconds.

Embrace the suck!
 
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Escapeandnevercomeback

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Hey buddy , I get you .
There are bad days and days you wish to quit it all together,
Testosterone is quite powerful & pushes you to verge of relapse somedays.
But dont forget how far you have come and what difficulties you have overcome till now.
More power to you.
Take care.
Thanks for the encouragement.
 
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