Escapeandnevercomeback
Respected Member
Day 1
I'm ashamed to always display the same mediocrity. After years of trying, I have no excuses. I am not supposed to be stuck in this loop. Not getting to even 2 weeks? After a few years of trying, that's all I can? Relapsing in the same way like 6 years ago? That's the problem. When the fuck am I going to change? How many fuckin times am I going to write "Day 1" here? It's up to me, nobody comes to save me, I'm on my own in this. It's nobody else's duty to save me, that's my duty. I got myself into this, I must get myself out. The "Relapse/Restart" marathon is as real as a punch in the fuckin mouth. We don't want to believe this but this marathon can actually last for life. So, what am I gonna do? I don't want to return here and write this type of shit again.
I'm ashamed to always display the same mediocrity. After years of trying, I have no excuses. I am not supposed to be stuck in this loop. Not getting to even 2 weeks? After a few years of trying, that's all I can? Relapsing in the same way like 6 years ago? That's the problem. When the fuck am I going to change? How many fuckin times am I going to write "Day 1" here? It's up to me, nobody comes to save me, I'm on my own in this. It's nobody else's duty to save me, that's my duty. I got myself into this, I must get myself out. The "Relapse/Restart" marathon is as real as a punch in the fuckin mouth. We don't want to believe this but this marathon can actually last for life. So, what am I gonna do? I don't want to return here and write this type of shit again.