I need to up my game.

[Blondie]

You got this Escape, just focus your mind on something else.

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

You got this Escape, just focus your mind on something else.

It is a must, yes. Thank you.

 

[Blondie]

The elephant in the room only exists if we think about it!

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

The elephant in the room only exists if we think about it!

That's right man

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

The elephant in the room only exists if we think about it!

The elephant in the room can be there, man, but you're watching TV, not the elephant.

 

[GeminiMan]

Day 7

1 week. Caffeine makes me have idiotic urges, I hate this fuckin shit. I might need to quit it.

Great to see you rising up @Escapeandnevercomeback .

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

Great to see you rising up @Escapeandnevercomeback .

Thanks, man.

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

Day 8

Massive urges. Fuck! The promise of pleasure is right here.

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

I did some edging.

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

My brain all it wants is for me to continue to edge myself into an oblivion. Once I start, it gets even more difficult to stop than not starting at all. If I survive today without PMO, it will be a miracle. Fuck counting days. It doesn't mean shit to me, how well can I disrupt this idiotic habit? That's the thing, not days.

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

But I do have a black and white mentality and this complicates everything because what my brain is thinking right now is: "Go all out, we've relapsed already!"

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

1 PMO

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

I must not binge. As pathetic as this might sound, I'm clinging to every little progress I could find in this shit My default behavior is to binge after 1 PMO. I feel de post-ejaculation depression...

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

Fuckin great way to fuck up my day Now I feel tired, unmotivated and anxious. Alcohol had been for a while what sabotaged me but I haven't even been drinking for several days. I sabotage myself.

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

THe fuckin chaser effect... I'm struggling not to fuckin binge.

 

[Blondie]

You got this man. Do what you must.

Anything is better than nothing.

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

I'm at loss when it comes to how to stop myself when the call for pleasure comes...

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

I've been thinking, at the beginning of last month I had a 15 days streak. Then after that, I don't think I went higher than 10 days. Lately, I'm done around 1 week mark I am not happy at all about this. Half a year gone and I haven't found any momentum.

 

[Phineas 808]

I've been thinking, at the beginning of last month I had a 15 days streak. Then after that, I don't think I went higher than 10 days. Lately, I'm done around 1 week mark I am not happy at all about this. Half a year gone and I haven't found any momentum.

Let THIS time be the momentum you need, Escape! You obviously care, you obviously WANT to be different. You obviously want a different result...

Maybe you've heard this? The definition of insanity is doing the same things but expecting a different result.

You have the best tools in front of you right now: your journal, your experiences, your habits. Go through it and determine what gave you the best streaks, what did you do right, what did you do wrong? Write down what was the best mindset you had that gave you the best results. Write down what were the best habits and what were the bad habits you changed or avoided that gave you the best results...

Take heart, believe in yourself- don't take that as 'airy-fairy' stuff, because you're the only one that can change yourself.

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

Day 0

PMO x 1

What have I gotten myself into... I can't believe this... I'm at loss for words...