Journey To Nirvaana !!!

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AJM

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Late post 30/6/21(yesterday)
Day 18 ,
Victory
- Was happy I completed a task of 2 months yday, took day off from studies & pampered myself
- educated myself on physical numbness found a way to retrain my brain (and penis) to respond to touch, rather than to porn
- If any one is intrested please have a look - Mindful Masturbation by Paula Hall on YBOP site,
- although I wont practice the last act of self gratification but ways to increase General body awareness & Increasing receptivity to touch are a big thumbs up (especially for singles in rewiring)
 
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AJM

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Day 19,
Victory.
- social media addiction is really bothering,
- introspecting made me realize I have just substituted watching porn with watching
-breaking news ,
- junk YT vids,
-Twitter n whats app and
- repeatedly checking REBOOTNATION site
- So speaking in scientific terms I am still feeding the same reward circuit and dopamine cravings, will have to work on this in journey ahead.
- Experimented with Mindful Masturbation exercise by Paula Hall , although I follow it as a Mindful Touch way i.e without edging/M and felt I have never ever touched my body so tenderly n lovingly all my life.
- loved the experience so the journey to self love begins.
- Flatlines are constant.
 
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yogi

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Good job on day 19.

It was the same with bro. Replacing porn with some other internetjunk, mostly youtube music or comedy videos. That sucks a lot.
Recently after reading self-help books, I have changed a lot.
 
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46and2

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Great job man! Keep up the awesome work. Sounds like you're powering through your flatline with great awareness.
 
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AJM

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Day 20,
Victory.
Had subtle random urges today. No MW whatsoever.
A bit unsettled day, was harsh on myself to avoided social media.
That wasnt healthy - will ponder on benefits v/s harm of social media and how to have a healthy relationship with it.
Much love.
 
Striving_for_Life

Striving_for_Life

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Keep it up brother. Cravings and mood swings may come but realize that it's just that the brain is wired towards something you don't want. It needs time to re-wire.
 
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AJM

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Day 20
Victory.
Seems I have already started longing for a partner subconsciously.
No compulsively looking for Breaking news today.
No MW .
 
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AJM

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Night of day 20,
Felt extremely horny and aroused and M urges, couldnt sleep just kept tossing in bed for long time.
Woke up to find my penis erect almost 80% hard & my balls exploding the retained semen - my 2nd wet dream in journry.
Happy I didnt give up to M urges while going to sleep.
Have a productive Sunday everyone.
 
Striving_for_Life

Striving_for_Life

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If you M, then I feel like it's not going to work... I have tried many times haha. It has to be cold turkey to succeed. But I wish you luck nonetheless.
 
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AJM

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Striving_for_Life said:
If you M, then I feel like it's not going to work... I have tried many times haha. It has to be cold turkey to succeed. But I wish you luck nonetheless.
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Hey brother, yes hardmode is the way for me and I cant agree more with you on it. 100%.
I did not M yesterday, infact I am happy the way I dealt with M urges.
Yesterday night I had Wet dream which, I believe is very natural and not under my control.
Thank you for the concern and interest in my journal.
 
Striving_for_Life

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I think I was commenting on this...- Experimented with Mindful Masturbation exercise by Paula Hall
I feel like that will make it more difficult
 
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AJM

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Ajinkya said:
- Experimented with Mindful Masturbation exercise by Paula Hall , although I follow it as a Mindful Touch way i.e without edging/M and felt I have never ever touched my body so tenderly n lovingly all my life.
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Hey i have customized it to Mindful Touch technique.
I am very sure that M without P/O is not for me and I agree totally with you on it friend.
 
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AJM

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Day 21.
Victory .
Had Lots of sleep today post night fall.
Had a very interesting conversation with myself when i was pondering on my social media addiction issues.
I was asking the WHY question but it quite did not work here as it did in porn addiction.
Because I had never reflected HOW social media addiction has affected me??
For HOW porn has affected me was obvious and clear - PIED ,failed relationships & lack of interest in true meaningful relationships.
Will spend next few days reflecting on HOW exactly social media has affected me.
Staying strong and watchful.
 
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Ajinkya said:
Day 21.
Victory .
Had Lots of sleep today post night fall.
Had a very interesting conversation with myself when i was pondering on my social media addiction issues.
I was asking the WHY question but it quite did not work here as it did in porn addiction.
Because I had never reflected HOW social media addiction has affected me??
For HOW porn has affected me was obvious and clear - PIED ,failed relationships & lack of interest in true meaningful relationships.
Will spend next few days reflecting on HOW exactly social media has affected me.
Staying strong and watchful.
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I actually really like this idea. I think there could also be an argument to include to way social media has affected others and affected the world. After all, the damning evidence is all around us right? Either way, great going on the 21 days Ajinkya. I especially like that you are staying humble & continuing to make efforts to grow/learn and not rest on your laurels. Keep up the great work!
 
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Orbiter said:
I actually really like this idea. I think there could also be an argument to include to way social media has affected others and affected the world. After all, the damning evidence is all around us right? Either way, great going on the 21 days Ajinkya. I especially like that you are staying humble & continuing to make efforts to grow/learn and not rest on your laurels. Keep up the great work!
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Thanks for the words of encouragement friend.
Take care and Stay strong.
 
Striving_for_Life

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Ajinkya said:
Day 21.
Victory .
Had Lots of sleep today post night fall.
Had a very interesting conversation with myself when i was pondering on my social media addiction issues.
I was asking the WHY question but it quite did not work here as it did in porn addiction.
Because I had never reflected HOW social media addiction has affected me??
For HOW porn has affected me was obvious and clear - PIED ,failed relationships & lack of interest in true meaningful relationships.
Will spend next few days reflecting on HOW exactly social media has affected me.
Staying strong and watchful.
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Social Media is like the gateway drug to P. I'm no longer on social media except for some friends on instagram I keep in touch with. I even got rid of my smartphone and just have a basic phone with sms. It's really helped me. If I get bored I have a kindle to read so it takes away any chance of browsing which may trigger me.

Limiting social media time is a great way to get away from this addiction.
 
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yogi

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Social media seems to be really useless for an individual, nothing more than entertainment, distraction and, like Striving said, a gateway to porn.
Certain ways they are useful too, like connecting with old friends or for business purpose. Depends on what we choose to use them for.

Great going Ajinkya on Day 21!
 
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AJM

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Late Post - 5/7/21 (yesterday)
Day 22
Victory
Chose not to check on Breaking news, twitter or any social media platform.
Was a very tough day - unsettled, anxious and irritable.
Came to realize how profoundly I am addicted to social media.
NO urges / Flatline continues.
 
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