Journey To Nirvaana !!!

AJM

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Day 79 - success so far
Having dull aching headache again, had similar headache in first 2 weeks of reboot.
I wonder if it is related to no PMO.
On other fronts I am doing good , except that my screen time has started increasing.
I am concerned about some of my fellow roboteers with whom I started my journey here are no longer Journaling.
I hope all is well.
 

AJM

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Day 81 - victory.
Had some Intense Morning erections .
Have controlled the screen time again
I have recently also started noticing how unconsciously I am habituated to gossiping .
Will Spend next few days reflecting on how much I gossip and how it affects me more than any one else.
Much love.
 

AJM

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Day 84 - Victory so far.
From 4 days I am having quite intense Morning wood, libido has sky rocketed.
During day I seem to be quite on fire I have a magnetic pull towards women - I ogle to be true.
and nights more difficult, a simple touching of penis evokes an erection.
Nocturnal erections have become more of a regular phenomenon.
although It may sound progress, which it is; I am finding it more difficult to control my urges.
I need to Up my guard and to be very true and honest - I am afraid of a relapse.
Now I feel Flatline phase was better.
I dont know what it is , is it healing / is it a phase/ is it normal ??
Anyone with similar experience ??
 

46and2

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I hear your fear man; it's natural to be afraid especially when you're doing as awesome as you are. The fear is nothing but a disguise, it has no strength, stay strong my friend. Very proud of your amazing achievement.
 
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EarthWalker

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I am finding it more difficult to control my urges.
I know what you mean. So far this is what got me every time. Cruising trough flatline then the urges hit (backed by a lot of sexual energy) then a bit of a struggle and then bam.

Are you channeling this energy to some project of yours?

Or maybe the point is to be able to look this urges in the eye and say - No thank you? Level up on urge surfing?

Wish you good luck
EW
 
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AJM

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I know what you mean. So far this is what got me every time. Cruising trough flatline then the urges hit (backed by a lot of sexual energy) then a bit of a struggle and then bam.

Are you channeling this energy to some project of yours?

Or maybe the point is to be able to look this urges in the eye and say - No thank you? Level up on urge surfing?

Wish you good luck
EW
I dealt urges by getting outdoors.
yes EW I have signed up for an exam ,but I would prefer look urges in the eye rather.
I admire the way you show interest in others journals and help them , this community is warm and uplifting because of people like you.
Thanks to you, I am doing better and dealing urges well .
 

AJM

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Day 91 - victory so far
Its been great journey so far , and the benefits are innumerable.
I wish and pray that every addict somewhere in the journey gathers enough strength and courage to confront this demon .
I do feel I have wings to fly now n not just to sexual related issues but my personality has changed for good.
Its been a fulfilling journey inside. I wish this for everyone.
 
Day 91 - victory so far
Its been great journey so far , and the benefits are innumerable.
I wish and pray that every addict somewhere in the journey gathers enough strength and courage to confront this demon .
I do feel I have wings to fly now n not just to sexual related issues but my personality has changed for good.
Its been a fulfilling journey inside. I wish this for everyone.
Dude. You're story is crazy encouraging. I just read from the begining and how you just committed to it, I'm challenged to do the same. Thanks for sharing.
 

AJM

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I read the start of your journal again today brother! You have come so far in 90 days it's incredible!
Thanks Neil , that made me review my journal also.
Its humbling , and yes I was overwhelmed with emotions reading it .
I am glad you appreciate that in me.
Thanks for being there for me Neil .
 

AJM

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Day 101 - victory so far.
As I reflect back on 20 years spend in finding escape in porn (instead of facing the struggle's and we all have in journey of life) ; I realize how hindered my growth as a man was.
I am astonished to see the growth I have seen in myself in last 100 days.
I am aware of the fact that these are early days in my no PMO journey, I am encouraged by the gifts this journey has bestowed upon me in such a short time span.
I pray for more strength and courage for everyone in this journey.
God bless us all.
 

Orbiter

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Day 101 - victory so far.
As I reflect back on 20 years spend in finding escape in porn (instead of facing the struggle's and we all have in journey of life) ; I realize how hindered my growth as a man was.
I am astonished to see the growth I have seen in myself in last 100 days.
I am aware of the fact that these are early days in my no PMO journey, I am encouraged by the gifts this journey has bestowed upon me in such a short time span.
I pray for more strength and courage for everyone in this journey.
God bless us all.

Wow AJ, I honestly feel like I blinked my eyes a couple of times and you went from 10 days to 101. Simply astonishing!

I'm very happy for your recent triumphs & success. It is very inspiring to read.

I'd wish you the rewards that being months clean entails but this would be unnecessary as you've earned it and are clearly living it.

Keep up the great work!
 
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