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AJM

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Hey all Reboot Family !!!

Im 32 yrs, porn addicted since almost 2 decades now. Watched porn to M almost every day, only a year ago came to realize how it has take toll on my relationships with myself and people around me. I have been trying to reboot since a year with sweet success and bitter relapses - longest streak 100 days . In 20 years of Porn addiction I find myself anxious, dependant and weak person . In my personal life it has lead to couple of failed relationships due to low libido and PIED. It has kept me away from finding a partner or showing genuine interest in partnership.
Long story short -PORN HAS DRAINED AWAY THE SOUL OUT OF MY LIFE.

Currently I am Day 8 of my reebot,
Here to connect to friends with same issues and help each other out of this .
STAY STRONG, STAY TOGETHER!!!!
 

yogi

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Hi Ajinkya
You have come to the right place at the right time.

Firstly, congratulations on achieving 8 days of no PMO!

Yes the headache is a part of withdrawal symptoms. Try meditation, physical exercise or going out to socialise to ease the symptoms. If it is a severe headache, try taking paracetamol, it should go away. Ensure that you have got enough sleep, else it could be sleep-deprivation headache. Also check out your eyesight; eyestrain (as in my case) can be the reason.

I assume you have no medical conditions (e.g: migraine) that are responsible for the headache.

Your story of relapse-reboot is only a year old. There are many of us who are struggling for several years. Read others' journals, draw inspiration from them, and also provide your own words of encouragement.

Read up material from the YBOP (YourBrainOnPorn) website. You will also get insight into withdrawal symptoms (such as the headache you are mentioning).

Wish you all the best in your journey to freedom!
 
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Thanks Yogi !!!
Will try out your suggestions .
Another thing thats bothering me is - having these intense urges to M . Will be going for long run - hope that helps.
Hey, Ajinkya!
I used to have those intense urges of masturbation too whenever I used to be in the early stages of a porn-vacation. But gradually they subsided over time. Just trust the process, they will subside for you too. Hang in there- don't escape.
Hope this helps!
 

Fappy

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Yes, those headaches could be a symptom of your abstaining from PMO.
As for the wanking, if you feel like you want to jerk off why not? If its isnt to porn and youre not doing hard mode, there isnt anything wrong with a good ole fashioned toss off! They can even help to curb the urges to PMO
 

yogi

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Regarding your intense urge to masturbate, I would say: Hold on!

You have mentioned you got PIED. If that wasn't the case masturbation would have been acceptable.
An important question would be: Are you getting frequent/consistent morning wood of 80% or more strength?

If not yet, I suggest you go hardmode till you reach that stage. Also at least one wet dream.

Prematurely masturbating (even without porn) might not be good for PIED.
 

AJM

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Thank you fappy and yogi !!!
I am happy that this M (wtihout porn) thing has come up .
please educate me -weather it is OK in reebot , what does science say, would it increase my chances of relapse??
My experience with M without porn is not good - I usually relapsed within 1-2 weeks after switching from hardcode mode to M without porn in my previous streaks.
thanks in advance.
 

AJM

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Regarding your intense urge to masturbate, I would say: Hold on!

You have mentioned you got PIED. If that wasn't the case masturbation would have been acceptable.
An important question would be: Are you getting frequent/consistent morning wood of 80% or more strength?

If not yet, I suggest you go hardmode till you reach that stage. Also at least one wet dream.

Prematurely masturbating (even without porn) might not be good for PIED.
yogi - i am hardly having any morning wood .
 

yogi

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yogi - i am hardly having any morning wood .
Then better to go cold turkey for a few days. You may get withdrawal symptoms. But one thing I am sure of: no morning wood means you are in a dormant/ lag phase. Appearance of morning wood is an indicator that the rewiring process has started.
 

AJM

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yesterday was day 9 - it went all well . have decided for the hard mode
but the social media consumption has increased, im afraid I will slip into relapse
No MW as of now . staying strong
 
yesterday was day 9 - it went all well . have decided for the hard mode
but the social media consumption has increased, im afraid I will slip into relapse
No MW as of now . staying strong
Hey, Ajinkya! That's great.
I got my first MW on the 11th day of the reboot- it was extremely mild at first but later it improved.
Good luck!
 
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AJM

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Day 10 - still strong , went well
Penis is like shrunken n seems a vestigial organ. no MW
lot of sexual thoughts n fantasies creep up while in bed.
 

AJM

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Day 11 - NO PMO. NO MW
BUT - these withdrawal symptoms are making me sick
- Headache
- body tension
- low mood
whatever it may take i will fight head on.
 

yogi

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Great going buddy! Day 11 is progress(y)

See if paracetamol can help with the headaches. And once again ask yourself if you are having, or likely to have, any diseases like diabetes or vitamin deficiency.
 

AJM

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thanks yogi ,
i have these symptoms for couple of weeks into reeboting - later they vanish
I do take PCM as and when required.
 

AJM

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Day 12 strong today.
No MV , no libido , penis has shrunken seems it will erode & vanish in couple of days . 😆😆
But im not worried about it .
I know rewiring and rebooting will take time.
Withdrawals Far better than yesterday.
 

AJM

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Day 13 , okay am happy about myself.
Woke up midnight yday after a horny dream (is that normal ???) found myself hard - say 50-60-%.
didnt act upon by M oing , so happy.
didnt exercise today - I hope im not Triggering
 
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