I am in Hell. Literally. Ive been living in hell with worst life. I was rised by a psychopath mother, every day I had huge fighting and screaming. Every day there was a total mess. Every day was fight for survival. I cant say how many times i was thinking about dying as a kid. But i kept fighting and at the age of 27 I run away from all of these opressive people. I won. I became successful in career. I built a startup company. I met a girl of my dreams, literally a girl of my dreams. She is perfect 10. And i thought everything was over i could be happy at last. And you guess what? PIED! I cant get and maintain erection. Im rebooting exactly 1 year already. Next week im becoming 29. This year was full of depression and demolition. We are so deeply in love. When i look at her she is a real angel. I have one step only to become extreme happy but PIED doesnt allow me. She told me I love you for life, sex is not so important to me. I will wait for you till the end of my life. And im still lying down on my bed now. I have few friends and girl of my dreams. I am extremely deprrssed and i'm thinking that I will never recover either I will lose my dream girl and my the only hapiness. This is extremely destroying when I see some people dont get cured for 4-5 years. I'm in extreme pain. Will i be like this forever? Will i lose my dream girl? I feel like I dissapointed my inner child who kept fighting since he was really small. I dissapointed him and destroyed 27 years of fighting for the hapiness. I cant keep living like this. All i want is to have sex with the girl i love more than my life. Please help, I am in an extreme despair. One my demon tells me that she will leave me, and another demon tells me I will never recober. What did i do wrong in My life?