I have been on reboot on and off for more than a year , I am 24 years old.
I started it on 8 June, 2020, it happened when suddenly one night I couldn't get erection to porn. ( I was used to fap everyday, with long edging sessions )
But i relapsed on porn until October 2020, After that I did not watched any porn, till today.
I would say I Have seen incredible benefits on non sexual side, tough i have read some sexual stuff.
Mind
1. My Anxiety is gone
2. My depression is gone
3. My positive energy has increased
4. My Concentration is better ( a lot better ).
Physical benefits
1. Energy is certainly high.
2. Workouts became very regular.
3. I have certainly lost fat on stomach. ( i already had low fat )
4. My chest is hairy.
5. I haven't build much muscle but certainly not lost any ( as i do a lot a yoga )
6. I have lost face fat.
7. overall i think i look a lot better and younger ( i have received compliments )
Sexual side.
1. Initially I had no libido at all for about 30 days or so, penis was shrunk.
2. After that I have been in waves of libido and no libido.
Goods.
1. Initially i was not able to masturbate in my own, it continued for long time, today I am able to masturbate on my own ( though i don't like it much now and i am thinking of leaving it ).
2. Masturbation when i do is mostly on touch, and when i gets hard, its pretty sensitive.
3. My morning wood comes regularly, ( not daily ) but its pretty consistent + Night erections are more consistent.
Bad
1. My libido is not that much as it used to be with porn, like my desire to masturbate is less ( like once a week, I actually feel its useless to masturbate )
2. ( I don't know if its good or bad ).
Things I don't know is good or bad
I am a virgin, so i haven't tasted sex yet, I have never been intimate with a women, Though I often get my eyes on women like a laser beam, but I don't feel any rush or erection ( am i supposed to feel like that ) , I my eyes do get hooked at them ( i am not creepy and stop doing it immediately ), there is something that they have that men don't have.
I don't know sexually i am healed or not, that is the main problem right now.
Also Sometimes I think do i have low testosterone ? But I don't have much symptoms ( I am quite happy most of the times, I am fit, pretty decent body, not fat, not anxious, confident, not depressed, grow full beard, just low libido is my problem ).
I actually desire a meaningful relation( which i never understood this when I was watching porn and fapping, I have actually hurt some women in my life by not giving them the importance I should have given )
I do want a woman i my life, I don't know how about how can our be the sexual life.
I started it on 8 June, 2020, it happened when suddenly one night I couldn't get erection to porn. ( I was used to fap everyday, with long edging sessions )
But i relapsed on porn until October 2020, After that I did not watched any porn, till today.
I would say I Have seen incredible benefits on non sexual side, tough i have read some sexual stuff.
Mind
1. My Anxiety is gone
2. My depression is gone
3. My positive energy has increased
4. My Concentration is better ( a lot better ).
Physical benefits
1. Energy is certainly high.
2. Workouts became very regular.
3. I have certainly lost fat on stomach. ( i already had low fat )
4. My chest is hairy.
5. I haven't build much muscle but certainly not lost any ( as i do a lot a yoga )
6. I have lost face fat.
7. overall i think i look a lot better and younger ( i have received compliments )
Sexual side.
1. Initially I had no libido at all for about 30 days or so, penis was shrunk.
2. After that I have been in waves of libido and no libido.
Goods.
1. Initially i was not able to masturbate in my own, it continued for long time, today I am able to masturbate on my own ( though i don't like it much now and i am thinking of leaving it ).
2. Masturbation when i do is mostly on touch, and when i gets hard, its pretty sensitive.
3. My morning wood comes regularly, ( not daily ) but its pretty consistent + Night erections are more consistent.
Bad
1. My libido is not that much as it used to be with porn, like my desire to masturbate is less ( like once a week, I actually feel its useless to masturbate )
2. ( I don't know if its good or bad ).
Things I don't know is good or bad
- Also my desire to masturbate is lesser.
- I get nightfall's after one week of abstinence pretty consistently.
- Today I saw some nude pics and also a porn video, but I was not a little bit excited at all, nothing happened to me.
I am a virgin, so i haven't tasted sex yet, I have never been intimate with a women, Though I often get my eyes on women like a laser beam, but I don't feel any rush or erection ( am i supposed to feel like that ) , I my eyes do get hooked at them ( i am not creepy and stop doing it immediately ), there is something that they have that men don't have.
I don't know sexually i am healed or not, that is the main problem right now.
Also Sometimes I think do i have low testosterone ? But I don't have much symptoms ( I am quite happy most of the times, I am fit, pretty decent body, not fat, not anxious, confident, not depressed, grow full beard, just low libido is my problem ).
I actually desire a meaningful relation( which i never understood this when I was watching porn and fapping, I have actually hurt some women in my life by not giving them the importance I should have given )
I do want a woman i my life, I don't know how about how can our be the sexual life.