I've been a porn addict for 54 years. This is the first time I have reached out, thought I would out grow compulsion. Been reading a lot of stories of your afflictions about the love of lust. Thankful that I'm not alone anymore thinking I am the worst of the worst, this mire of desire has taken all my contentment that I ever earned and left me numb without the ability to love myself. I've searched to find normal, decided since there was none no way I could stop or even wanted to because I knew I wouldn't, I was possessed by pleasure so I never had hope to quit, I was immersed. I'm glad I have found that somebody else knows this proclivity and its insidious madness.