Completed day 1
Yes, well said. I am trapped in this "Relapse/Restart" cycle myself, I know what it's like. Time flies and if we don't pay attention, we could be trapped in this cycle 10 years from now as well. There is a point where we need to start doing it right. What does "doing it right" mean for all of us? That's what we need to figure out. You know, this porn addiction is a form of (fake) comfort for us. With time we might end up prefering the comfort, we don't want to hear things. But I've realized that I now prefer someone to come and tell me straight up: "You are not doing this right, figure it out!" Because without this, I like to stay in my comfort zone and answer to that person: "But quitting porn is so hard! You're being fuckin mean, man! For said that to me in such a way!" But the truth is, we need to really start fuckin doing it, no sugarcoating, no "I don't want to hear this" type of shit. Otherwise, the "Relapse/Restart" cycle is waiting for us 10 years from now on and we will come back here writing "Day 1 I can't do this no more". Yes, restarting is worth of respect but coming here for years and years to write "Day 1" is a waste of life. And I'm writing this for myself too because I haven't overcome that yet, I need to hear it too, my streak is only 4 days long and I've been writing "Day 1" on reboot nation for about 3 years already. And yes, I believe that having rebooting for sex as the number one goal is a lame reason, we must do this to open the doors and make becoming our best version possible, to go out and do all the things we want to do in life. Peace.Hey man; I hope you don't mind me saying but it seems that you've locked yourself into a reboot/relapse cycle. I'm not trying to make you feel bad; how could I when I've been locked in a reboot/reuse cycle for 15 years now. I myself am only on Day 3 at my latest attempt at recovery.....so I wonder my friend, where are we going wrong? Because we can adopt all the healthy behaviours we like but when the crunch comes it's the urges that win. I think a why is very important but I personally believe wanting to get laid again is too superficial....thats great and all but there has to be more. For me I now believe that the most important thing is that I recover from my addiction and by recover I mean recover the person I was meant to be before I let this shit take over my life. There is a reason we use; there is a pain we try to numb and drown out. That pain has to be listened to as uncomfortable as it may be. Congratulations on continuing the fight my friend and really it's great you're still journaling. Really! Many a time I started journaling and then relapsed and completely stopped because of shame. So it's great you're sticking with it mate. Much love!
Someone is said that I not recovered yet. Because I am trapped in a relapse restart cycle. And I think it's true.