Journey begins, general questions

Biz

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Day 15 btw I’m 30

Feeling good about my reboot, got good sleep, I feel like my brain thinks too much about this infliction too much, I’m going to try to begin living a bit more, and accepting my situation. Tbh I feel good where I’m at even though I hit a flat line I believe as soon as I began. Can’t wait to catch an E.
 
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Biz

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New day-16

still streaming, going to go home for the weekend with parents, during this early process I’m precarious about being home by myself, while I initially learn to deal. Also I can drink with em and not worry about triggers. Sometimes I literally feel the front of my brain hurting lol, idk if anyone else experiences this sensation. I woke up with a continuous erection today for like 20 mins, dead now, I saw some girls, and had sexual thoughts about me,when I was PMOing that rarely occurred esp if I deemed them ugly, it feels good to feel this change. Also my work ethic has improved.
 

Biz

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Idk if I relapsed, I got fired today, and I messaged some hookers I had seen that engaged in fetishes with me, I didn’t look at photos or M but I felt low and it’s def a trigger giving me an E thinking about it, it fuckin sucks, cuz edging off photos from these classifieds prob brought me down this path, do I reset my counter at zero?
 

Biz

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Back at it, im still streaking, not being hard on myself this process is about getting these behaviors under control as well
 

Biz

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Day 18

Still no pmo, i feel like i started treating this process like a broken bone, dont worry about recovery time, take it day by day, and do your best to accomplish most in 24 hours, omw to the gym best
 

Biz

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Day 19
Woke up today with a massive E, still got no movement during the day. But I feel terrific to have had an E damn near 100 percent. Have a good day fellow rebooters.
 

zackergeet

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Day 19
Woke up today with a massive E, still got no movement during the day. But I feel terrific to have had an E damn near 100 percent. Have a good day fellow rebooters.
Yeah man I know that feeling after having zero MOrning wood. It feels so good to see your little buddy alive. For me is that same during the day is sleeping except for a couple of time that I got random erections during the day but still huge improvement.
 

Biz

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Day 20

Its going well, i accidentally saw some psub material today and turned it away, im proud of myself, i can feel myself responding better to my carnal desires. Abstinence has me readily making better decisions, i feel like it can really act on my anxiety at times, but for the most part, day by day im getting better against a lot of the carnal desires i so readily had shown in the past.
 

zackergeet

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Day 20

Its going well, i accidentally saw some psub material today and turned it away, im proud of myself, i can feel myself responding better to my carnal desires. Abstinence has me readily making better decisions, i feel like it can really act on my anxiety at times, but for the most part, day by day im getting better against a lot of the carnal desires i so readily had shown in the past.
Awesome Biz!
 

Biz

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Hi guys day number 22, i cant believe the time has flew by, just checking in today, i feel like this in combination with a therapist has me understanding myself soooo much better than before. I felt real low yesterday but today i feel so much better, my energy feels as renewed as day one thankfully, and all day yesterday i wanted to end my hardmode, as i sought out cheap thrills. I needed this time to heal.
 

Biz

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Day 27

hey guys I still haven’t Od but I’ve been looking at escort ads more consistently and have been contacting them, prob why I haven’t wrote here, I feel bad about it. My E has been real strong, and with me being unemployed I have too much free time despite working out. I am hoping not watching the all out porn and not Oing is progress, but I’m prob not healing at rate I want. Having not O tho has led my texts with women to be a lot more engaging so that’s progression, but I got to stop trying to meet escorts and contacting them cuz that def isn’t helping.
 

Biz

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I’m thinking about Oing to my touch cuz I’m pretty positive I can do this, maybe I regain composure, but I’m trying to hold out for a date I got Friday, I’m going through so many sexually intense thoughts
 

Biz

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I od to a lady of the street twice, i dont think hardmode is my friend, i think im going to M as little as possible, but when im getting solid E, just do it on touch, im capable of this, i did want to exp a wet dream once in my life, but idk if i got patience for that.
 

AJM

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I od to a lady of the street twice, i dont think hardmode is my friend, i think im going to M as little as possible, but when im getting solid E, just do it on touch, im capable of this, i did want to exp a wet dream once in my life, but idk if i got patience for that.
Hey biz , I get you. There are times in reboot your patience is tested and retested.
I dont want impose on you that M is okay/ not okay in reboot , because every one has there own reboot journey.
I just want you to go through M and no M , try out both for couple of months and see what suits you.
 

Biz

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Guys,

Ive successfully rebooted, i caught mine early, but ive had no prob getting Es, after going cold Turkey for about 28 days. I still got prob with fetishes so im about to go hardmode and only O with partner, cuz i want to control my sexuality, and stop looking at escort ads. From my recovery if you get yours early you can get your Es back if you no longer look at P. That was it for me, even pics were fine for me, the hardcore P has to stop. I M to my touch and my E gets stronger every day. Guys im telling you in my experience just stop the P.
 

Biz

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Hi Guys and Gals,

I thought I would check in with y'all, so after feeling invincible and going cold for a month I felt my strength return, I started dating women with vigorous energy and no problems for the months of September, then I felt my guy weakening and needing BJ to get an E, when I was standing at full attention before in Sep. I bought YBOP and it helped me work out a better plan, I realized even though I had not been looking at P or Ming, I was still looking at ads for companionship.

This was still giving me all the P i needed and made me suffer a setback. Now I'm no longer looking at these ads and my member's strength is growing, and I am starting to visualize intimacy with some of my coworkers. I forgot this feeling this feeling of the chase, I thought I was cool that women didn't get to me, and I just approached it all wrong, these are the thoughts you should have in your everyday life its the zest of life. Also other pointers for those going through what I have and finding my journal useful, when I started I quit hardcore P no M or O to it, and haven't seen the main source of P since July, just P substitutes-ads of fetishes and women.

This quitting of hardcore stuff has been a big event, and I treat it as a big event. When I found out later that I was getting the abuse from ads ( equate it to quitting drinking my putting down hard liquor for beer), I put that down and experienced some drawbacks at first but knew Id get through it cuz I had quit the big monkey. Now I cruise Fb a bit, but not really for stimulus for women but really to check where people are in life and I guess a bit boredom. I deleted dating apps cuz I knew that was a fix of some sort, you need to ask yourself where do I get my fixes, my enjoyment, and quash it little by little.

P just might fall under the addiction to the phone to be honest, quit enjoying private moments with interactive devices and I think you will much improve. I got a date tomorrow and I KNOW I WILL BE ABLE TO PERFORM. Yet I am still moving forward until I get E's in everyday moments of life. Thoughts about coworkers and women I encounter is a plus, this is where my eye is gazing at, the normalcy of women. Also, I will see shortly if I have to delete FB too if I plateau again. Keep going warriors, keep getting informed.

I fully suggest buying Your Brain on Porn, and last but not least take it easy on yourself. Count the small battles they will lead to you achieving victory, don't be hard on yourself, live your life, go out and meet people, I know it is only a matter of time before I'm healed completely, and if I suffer a momentary setback who cares when I consider how soft I was when I was with a person, sometimes my member wouldn't even go up in a girl's mouth. Now seeing a girl naked makes me semi E, it responds to touch and during the act I'm fully able to perform and take much enjoyment. I get MW everyday when sometimes when I was suffering. I wouldn't even get them. I love the improvements I'm making while understanding myself more fully. I love how my eyes are slowly starting to take more stimulus from real ladies as well.
 
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Biz

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New Day,

I feel like I got pass the need to look at Ads, everything is up on my end, I feel a different mindstate, I do look at dating websites like Hinge, but personally idk if it has same effect on me as ads, there is less nudity, and I see these women to go on dates and develop relationships with. Ill let ya know if I have any problems, im going to try to see a lady on back to back nights to see how my body reacts to this stimulus.
 

Biz

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Hi posters,

just a new report, for anyone interested in 31 6 foot, 190 pounds. I originally had thought I conquered this, but now I feel closer than ever, I’m seeing a girl tonight, after seeing her yesterday and going twice, I’m going to see how it responds
 
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