Man I can relate here with the age and health issues. Like my dad always said getting old is better than the alternative!! I agree about having to find the "right" moment when either one of us isn't exhausted or dealing with pain. Keep up the good work!
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I believe no I Know.....it did with me!
Artemus, much of our struggle has to do with identity. I, too, can identify with Peter- but I like the Peter who's very shadow healed the sick. I like what he says here, 'Be' - we can be holy, only because He's holy.
Let His holiness bring us into a place heretofor unknown to us.
Let His holiness bring us into a place heretofor unknown to us.
Thanks for sharing brother! GOD's word and prayer are powerful! And I needed this as well. Just recently had a sermon on Romans 8 and man GOD was speaking to me!
Hi, Jerry! Saw you mention Romans 8 before elsewhere...
Romans 6, 7, 8 have long been a 'manual' on how to do it from a spiritual/biblical perspective. Back in 1990-91, I saw victory over a masturbation and lust habit by utilizing the truths in those chapters.
Today, too, I still refer often to those chapters.
That is certainly something that comes up, in lieu of 'doing well', or in lieu of reaching a goal, those times used to trip me up. I think how my mindset is now is that I'm simply doing what should be done, anyway.
I do celebrate the small and large victories, but I do so in a way that says to myself that this should just be 'normal life' anyway...(?)
I do celebrate the small and large victories, but I do so in a way that says to myself that this should just be 'normal life' anyway...(?)
Good job letting them pass through, Artemus! Hope you feel better emotionally!
May I ask, what the second counter is for (001) ?
May I ask, what the second counter is for (001) ?
Exactly. Filters and porn-blockers seem to create the 'dry-drunk' phenomenon. The person just wants to PMO, and the only thing stopping him is someone has his password, or he'll owe them money, be 'accountable', or they have to figure out how to hack the blocker.
I prefer to overcome this thing while the access to the whole dark world of evil is available to me. That means 'I chose' to say No- not because I had no choice because someone took the car keys away from me.
The whole thing is disempowering, and makes for a weak and underdeveloped 'rebooter'.
I prefer to overcome this thing while the access to the whole dark world of evil is available to me. That means 'I chose' to say No- not because I had no choice because someone took the car keys away from me.
The whole thing is disempowering, and makes for a weak and underdeveloped 'rebooter'.
WOW! Thanks for writing this as I am feeling this and have been for over a week. I too want my wife and not porn and I'm likely been in the 1 a month club which I weep for me!! Tonight we are going to have a long talk about all of this including the journey. It won't be new to her but I am fearful she will turn this back to me! I am prepared for that. Good news is like you even though this is happening I will not PMO. Not in the cards for me anymore and I refuse to go back. I feel you brother!
During my journey at 112 days I lapsed and viewed a video for about 1 minute, turned it off and MO'd to the image. So I started over. Also during those 112 days I MO'd 5 times usually after sex with the wife (chaser effect) but no P. I am not necessarily counting days as much as trying to continue to improve without any MO this time around. Dang it has been a challenge but all is good. I also at times during my journey wanted to do the same -throw my hands up and just PMO, but I know I have built a strong foundation and that is not the man I am anymore. You do you and Grace and Peace brother!
Hey, brother. Sorry for your recent struggles. I'm very well aware of going down that road, skirting around the rim of the porn-pit, and then getting more brazen, doing actual searches, seeing the thumbnails, etc...
It was funny, last night I wondered how many days I'd have if I continued on since November 6, 2020, when I accomplished 139 days by March 25..., I'd be now at 290 today!
But we know ourselves. Starting fresh at 0 often times gives us that fresh and new approach. It helps us to marshal our focus, our resolve, and assess our methods...
You know, too, that it's not truly '0', but part of your overall recovery efforts. For example, I could say to myself, in the last 290 days, I've only lapsed (counted as days) 5x! Each of those meant a reset, but you can see that in the bigger picture, it shows much progress from where I was at (1-2x a week, at least).
Be strong, brother. Walking this out together with you.
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Working on projects around house, wife is home and healthy. Have a good weekend. If you are a Christian such as myself I'd ask you pray for our Country and especially for the people being abandoned in Afghanistan. I never was in favor of going over there and I believe we stayed far too long, but literally cutting and running in the middle of the night like cowards is unforgivable. The scar left on the world by these actions will remain for generations. I have my own opinions on why this was done that I won't share here publicly, but I will say I have wept many times over the last several days imagining the horrors these people are facing who were needlessly abandoned behind enemy lines.
In 1842 The British were forced to retreat from Kabul, Afghanistan. 4,500 British troops and 12,000 civilians retreated back towards India(Jalalabad), they all would not make it, only 1 man emerged from the retreat initially... Much later on some hostages were rescued and/or released, though not many.
Afghanistan, "The Graveyard of Empires".
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In 1842 The British were forced to retreat from Kabul, Afghanistan. 4,500 British troops and 12,000 civilians retreated back towards India(Jalalabad), they all would not make it, only 1 man emerged from the retreat initially... Much later on some hostages were rescued and/or released, though not many.
Afghanistan, "The Graveyard of Empires".
One Man Survived the 1842 Massacre of a British Army in Afghanistan
A British Army was massacred in January 1842 while retreating from Kabul, Afghanistan and only one man survived to tell the horrifying story.
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Incredible post and I agree with all of it! Our country/world is in such a difficult place from division and heck even seeing segregation. I won't get into all of it as I am sure some would be offended by my views, but what is more disturbing is I respect all views on the situation and can be an adult about it. The "majority" appears that this can't happen. Their way or the highway! Ok I am stopping...
I pray everyday for this country, the division, and what's going on. Revelation is real. Glad your doing well and I appreciate your posts!
I pray everyday for this country, the division, and what's going on. Revelation is real. Glad your doing well and I appreciate your posts!
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You would think that when nurses (the backbone and most trustworthy of the medical community) pose objections people would pay attention and consider their arguments.
May God grant you and your wife wisdom and mercy as you deal with this challenging trial.
May God grant you and your wife wisdom and mercy as you deal with this challenging trial.
Great post. I like your analysis and data. I'm in healthcare and we are on the precipitous of an interesting dynamic with "mandates". Hospitals are already stretched thin and experiencing a staff shortage (like all industries when the govt pays you not to work). If they lose even 10% of the staff due to "mandates" it will have a ripple effect on all pieces of patient care. Not wanting to start a debate but this division will be interesting as it plays out in all industries over the next 60 days throughout the US.
Anyway I am feeling good on my latest PMO and no MO journey. We will see where it takes me (and my wife). My drive is much stronger and she does have some health issues. But like you sometimes I want the release but will wait until it's real with her. Even though my fear is it will be so "quick" like a HS kid in the back of a car!
. I am also not taking any ED meds as we navigate this and she is aware but if and when we have sex, I know that if my soldier doesn't perform she immediately thinks it's her. This is frustrating as we have discussed this multiple times. Oh well not sure why I wrote this but just thought I woulds share!
Anyway I am feeling good on my latest PMO and no MO journey. We will see where it takes me (and my wife). My drive is much stronger and she does have some health issues. But like you sometimes I want the release but will wait until it's real with her. Even though my fear is it will be so "quick" like a HS kid in the back of a car!
. I am also not taking any ED meds as we navigate this and she is aware but if and when we have sex, I know that if my soldier doesn't perform she immediately thinks it's her. This is frustrating as we have discussed this multiple times. Oh well not sure why I wrote this but just thought I woulds share!Again correct!! Several mask studies have been published only to be removed or forced to be republished as "hypothesis". I'm serious!!! Cloth masks are like putting up a chain link fence to keep mosquitos out of your yard. PPE needs to be removed often to be effective. People wearing gloves is a whole other story! All the "masks" hanging in cars off the rear view mirrors that are used for days, weeks, months-SMH!
Your mask knowledge is correct. We've had the "Vid", my son currently has the "Vid"-Feeling better after ivermectin in 48 hours and we have antibodies over 9 months out. Education and common sense is at an all time low. Social media and heck media isn't education. Hospitals have a staffing problem... Do I think Covid is real-Yes, Do I think certain people should get the vaccine-Yes, Do I think certain shouldn't-Yes, Do I believe in natural immunity-Yes, Do I believe you can get Covid if you have had it or the vaccine-Yes. In the history of the US has there ever been a vaccine MANDATE??
I am amazed how people's failure to "adult". Differences of opinions are OK but today's society you can be ostracized for them if it's not the narrative. Ok @Artemus see what you did...LOL got me all fired up on Friday.
GOD Bless this country, this site, and everyone battling the P demon! Prayers to all and I hope everyone has a great Labor Day Weekend!
Your mask knowledge is correct. We've had the "Vid", my son currently has the "Vid"-Feeling better after ivermectin in 48 hours and we have antibodies over 9 months out. Education and common sense is at an all time low. Social media and heck media isn't education. Hospitals have a staffing problem... Do I think Covid is real-Yes, Do I think certain people should get the vaccine-Yes, Do I think certain shouldn't-Yes, Do I believe in natural immunity-Yes, Do I believe you can get Covid if you have had it or the vaccine-Yes. In the history of the US has there ever been a vaccine MANDATE?? I am amazed how people's failure to "adult". Differences of opinions are OK but today's society you can be ostracized for them if it's not the narrative. Ok @Artemus see what you did...LOL got me all fired up on Friday.
GOD Bless this country, this site, and everyone battling the P demon! Prayers to all and I hope everyone has a great Labor Day Weekend!
Hi, Artemus.
The time line is rather interesting how things went even since 2017 (and long before), the moves that were made by the incoming administration, and continuing even after it was well known what kind of bio-weapon we were all facing.
Everyone's hands are 'red' with this one.
The time line is rather interesting how things went even since 2017 (and long before), the moves that were made by the incoming administration, and continuing even after it was well known what kind of bio-weapon we were all facing.
Everyone's hands are 'red' with this one.