Walking on the Water

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Hi Phineas. Your a fellow brother in Christ if I'm not mistaken. God Bless you. Yeah, I was only joking regarding Gabe..he seems a cool guy and watching his videos have been very helpful.

You’re not mistaken, brother.

God bless you, too. And welcome to the forum.
 

Artemus

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Hi Artemus. I'm new on this site (joined 3 - 4 weeks ago) and this is my first post. Like you, I'm 51 and have been hooked on porn since around 12. Tried to give up millions of times - you know the gig. Tomorrow will be day 9 of no PMO/MO so please keep me in your prayers, thanks. Anyway, I've noticed there's loads of believers on RN, you being one of them. I also am a born again believer. I really just wanted to point you to AOC Network on YouTube and the 2 witnesses movie they released a while back. Eschatology/Book of Revelation was never my thing as it always seemed so far into the future but man, their video came up on my feed 2 weeks ago and it completely changed my outlook on the future. I'll stop there otherwise Gabe will kick me off the forum for talking about Jesus too much lol. God Bless.
Thank you GN1 for honoring me with your first post. As always I ask those who share our faith to continue to pray for our country and its leaders. God is still fully capable of turning hearts and also using unbelievers to do his will. If any of you are interested in a channel that really digs deep in the scripture and keeps the context of those times in focus I'll recommend a few of my favorites.

Bruce Gore
Ben Stanhope
Ligonier Ministries (RC Sproul)
Sergio & Rhoda in Israel
The Chosen

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Artemus

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I listened to a great sermon this morning that I think is applicable to our struggle.

Suffering and Sin by RC Sproul

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Artemus

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i came across this song yesterday while listening to a podcast and it just resonated with me so strongly that now I've listened to it probably 25 times. Whats funny is its from 1969 and even though its a genre I love I'd never heard it. I suppose it spoke to me because of where our society is presently, with so much division, so many lies, so much fear, so much corruption. It also brought to mind a friend I haven't seen in years, we met working at a furniture store when we were both 20. On the surface we were diametrically opposed, but we soon became fast friends and I can say I've never had another friend I felt as close to. We married our wives on the same day exactly 1 year apart, my first his second. I was clean cut, conservative, cautious and he was long haired, he used some drugs here and there, but we both loved cars and driving, we were Mutt & Jeff. Together we were a good balance, but life took us in different directions and I haven't seen or heard from him in 20 years. Our wives grew up in the same church, but weren't friends, which made things sticky at times for us... But yesterday hearing this song brought back all the memories of the trouble we got up to back then as young men and how much we thought alike, like a single mind and it brought a smile to my face. Anyway enjoy this tribute to my friend, John. I hope he is doing well and that we can reconnect.

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As I rode into Tombstone on my horse, his name was Mack,
I saw what I'll relate to you going on behind my back.
It seems the folks were up in arms, a man now had to die
For believing things that didn't fit the laws they'd set aside.
The man's name was Ima Freak, the best that I could see.
He was the executioner, a hangman just like me.
I guess that he'd seen loopholes from working with his rope.
He'd hung the wrong man many times, so now he'd turned to hope.
He talked to all the people from his scaffold in the square.
He told them of the things he'd found, but they didn't seem to care.
He said the laws were obsolete, a change they should demand,
But the people only walked away. He couldn't understand.

The marshall's name was Uncle Sam. He said he'd right this wrong.
He'd make the hangman shut his mouth if it took him all day long.
He finally arrested Freak and then he sent for me
To hang a fellow hangman from a fellow hangman's tree.
It didn't take them long to try him in their court of law.
He was guilty then of thinking, a crime much worse than all.
They sentenced him to die, so his seed of thought can't spread
And infect the little children. That's what the law had said.
So the hanging day came 'round and he walked up to the noose.
I pulled the lever, but, before he fell, I cut him loose.
They called it all conspiracy and that I had to die,
So, to close our mouths and kill our minds, they hung us side by side.

And now we're two hangmen hanging from a tree.
That don't bother me at all.
Two hangmen hanging from a tree.
That don't bother me at all.

Two hangmen hanging from a tree.
That don't bother me at all.
Two hangmen hanging from a tree.
That don't bother me at all.

Two hangmen hanging from a tree
On both sides of Jesus.
That don't bother me, that don't bother me, at all.

Yeah, sing it.

Two hangmen hanging from a tree.
You gotta hang around.
That don't bother me at all.

You gotta hang around,
Hanging from a tree now.

Two hangmen hanging from a tree.
That don't bother me at all.

Two hangmen hanging from a tree.
That don't bother me at all.
 
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JerryTX

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I listened to a great sermon this morning that I think is applicable to our struggle.

Suffering and Sin by RC Sproul

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Thanks for sharing. I agree as it resonates. Have a great weekend brother!
 
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Artemus

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Not sure on exact time in, I'm not working from home right now and I don't use my phone or tablet to access web anymore. Trying to remodel our old house and get it on the market ahead of a possible crash but China seems to be falling apart faster than I can work. Not sure how long it'll be before I get back to regular posting, be well. I'm only posting now just to let everyone know I'm ok. Hold the line.
 

Artemus

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I am so ....

Tired
Stressed
Under Pressure
Angry
Frustrated
Lonely

PMO is so far from my mind right now, that it seems alien. When I was younger and single I had many friends and I miss that. Not to say I regret my wife, I don't, she's perfect, but lately I feel like I'm at the end of the line. What I mean is it seems everyone else has someone they can share their stress and problems with and I'm that someone for everybody else. When I turn around to share my load no one is there. My wife's job is a stress bomb ratcheting up, bit by bit. She calls me multiple times a day to tell me she's ready to walk out, which financially would be death... Whats even more maddening is she just got the raise she deserves and that we need and now wants to walk out. This has played out so many times over the years I'm kinda tired of it, we finally begin to turn a corner on our finances and she folds up like a cheap suit and quits. Its always something, the hours, the schedule, the coworkers, the benefits, the pay and on and on.

Add in my parents who are vax devotees and bugging me to take the poison dart, not to mention they live in an area that is in serious decline. When they bought their house in 1966 it was a new home in the suburbs outside Atlanta, now its more or less a ghetto and all the neighbors we had for decades are all gone, the last 2 are moving into assisted living this Friday. I've tried to get them to move closer to me, back to their home town where I live so I can take better care of them as they need. I'm also concerned about upcoming supply disruptions on food and medicines and fuel because where they live it may get to be, "Dog eat dog" and that's no place for an 80+ year old. My father is incapable of even discussing the upcoming economic realities and instead elects to hide in his room surrounded by junk mail he claims are valuable. He called yesterday to let me know he bought me a raincoat and a pocket knife... He just can't fathom where we are and whats happening, much less that its being done on purpose. They both have pinned "ALL" their hopes on getting Trump re-elected in 2024, but I know we can't wait that long and its past time to get serious and prepare. I expect much worse as out tyrannical regime intends to take our jobs and ability to bank and travel unless we concede to their poison dart, regardless that the FDA boards voted against giving anyone the shot, much less any boosters. Now the CDC is getting in on the attack and declaring firearms a health crisis.

War it seems has arrived, not from some foreign power or some outlandish fundamentalist terrorist group, but from inside our own government and carried out by companies and financial institutions and three letter agencies setup to protect the public we've long trusted are now all at our throats. Did I miss anyone? Perhaps, every morning brings a new assault aimed at utter destruction. I know God is in control, but its difficult to remain calm as the Maelstrom screams and rages. The doors and windows rattle, the winds howl and I vacillate between struggling to hold the doors closed with all my might or just letting go and being over run. I still can't believe just how evil these people really are, so devoid of empathy and care. Just lies on top of lies followed by murder, betrayal and theft. On some occasions I actually fear what awaits these people at judgement. Then at other times I find myself having violent fantasies, things I never thought I could feel, but I do. Where did the country go I so loved and was proud of? Why do they so want to destroy everything, have they not gotten rich raping her time and again?

I'm just venting...
 

Cmax

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You are not alone.....I have many of the same feelings....Luckily my wife is supporting my reboot (111 days) and we vent a lot about the jab.....I have done something which has helped me become free.....I made a list of everything which I am at war against....mandates, meter maids, no blinker drivers the Houston Astros ect....and I made peace with each item on my list....the list gets bigger every week...but it frees me up to concentrate on important things like my wife and my ed reboot! Good luck, your feelings are valid but find a way to rid the negative from your mind!
 

JerryTX

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@Artemus . First, sorry about all the stress and frustration. Second, great post and this world we live in is getting very strange indeed. Being in the healthcare field and needing to provide for my family I felt "forced, coerced, & victimized" by having to take the VAX! Not to start a debate but this lack of the "science and data" THEY claim to follow is absurd. No more talk of natural immunity, no more talk of herd immunity, no talk of THEIR/CDC mortality rate (less than 2%). Just get the shot, get the shot! While in TX the boarders are wide open and no testing or vax or care in the world. It's a crying shame.

Hang in their brother!

 

Artemus

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Well I had a free moment and thought I'd give an update, no clue on days I'll have to go back and calculate, but thats indicative of how much I've given thought to PMO, near zero. I proudly confess I had a moment of curiosity and went to and old familiar site only to be overtaken by nausea at what I saw just on the front page! To me that is a huge victory, to catch just a glimpse of something and that causes immediate physical sickness is a HUGE victory and I just wanted to share that. Even though the maelstrom rages on I find myself peaceful and some of that victory and hope is because of you guys who fight along side me. I don't know the future or what shock waits around the next corner, but I do know who has my back. Thank you men, for everything. A second small victory, but a "W" none the less was a DVD I recently purchased, "Season 1 Yellowstone". I'd never seen any episodes but the ads looked good, everyone was talking about it, the cast was awesome so I bought it... Didn't make it through the first episode before I just couldn't watch anymore and gave it to my wife to give away at work. Days gone by I woulda snuck back sometime later and had my fun, but all I wanted this time was my money back on some trash.

My house is nearly ready for market and blessings keep rolling in for us. Not sure when I'll get back on here, but I look forward to posting more progress. I'll be praying for you guys as it seems we are all facing similar forces.

Later, Dudes!
 

Cmax

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Well I had a free moment and thought I'd give an update, no clue on days I'll have to go back and calculate, but thats indicative of how much I've given thought to PMO, near zero. I proudly confess I had a moment of curiosity and went to and old familiar site only to be overtaken by nausea at what I saw just on the front page! To me that is a huge victory, to catch just a glimpse of something and that causes immediate physical sickness is a HUGE victory and I just wanted to share that. Even though the maelstrom rages on I find myself peaceful and some of that victory and hope is because of you guys who fight along side me. I don't know the future or what shock waits around the next corner, but I do know who has my back. Thank you men, for everything. A second small victory, but a "W" none the less was a DVD I recently purchased, "Season 1 Yellowstone". I'd never seen any episodes but the ads looked good, everyone was talking about it, the cast was awesome so I bought it... Didn't make it through the first episode before I just couldn't watch anymore and gave it to my wife to give away at work. Days gone by I woulda snuck back sometime later and had my fun, but all I wanted this time was my money back on some trash.

My house is nearly ready for market and blessings keep rolling in for us. Not sure when I'll get back on here, but I look forward to posting more progress. I'll be praying for you guys as it seems we are all facing similar forces.

Later, Dudes!
Congratulations....the rewiring is occurring!
 

Artemus

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Finished my work early today and in contrast my wife is having to stay late for hers...(Happens a lot as of late due to staffing shortages) We don't have standard TV in our house, we have a TV, but we don't have cable, just the internet and a DVD/BluRay player. Anywho I gave up mainstream news and TV about 10 years ago, but I have specific channels I follow on Youtube(actively I'm working towards deleting my account). Typically I watch some scientific channels, some Motorsports highlight channels, some Christian education stuff and some independent journalism stuff. One of the channels I enjoy is "Russell Brand's" podcast(I'm a huge podcast junkie, but usually just audio). Today he uploaded a video that is directly related to Pleasure/Pain and the brain. Below is the link and I hope everyone will watch it thru.

The DOPAMINE HACK that will WAKE YOU UP!
 

JerryTX

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1 Corinthians 10:13-- one of my favorites. Thanks for posting and I enjoyed listening to it. She called it the gremlins in your brain but I call it the P Demon!! I agree with her about staying equal as you battle any addiction. She made a lot of valid points that I have felt as it relates to my journey with PMO. Thanks again for sharing! On another note I had no idea what Russell Brand was doing these days!
 
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Artemus

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Well its been about 2-1/2 months, I'm still hard at work everyday repair/remodel our old home so we can sell it. Everybody else wanted me to sell it as is, but it matters to me that my name will be on it(so to speak). The scripture about "doing unto others" always stuck with me and even though the lady that sold it to me hid all the issues and lied about others, I can't just pass it on to someone else that way. We live in a rural area so if I need supplies its 2 hours round trip just in driving, not to mention a tight budget, so the work progressed slower than I'd like, but I've learned a lot and honed older skills. Finally next week the carpet people are coming and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, only exterior painting remains, which means the weather will be tricky. As to my progress on PMO, its been mostly good, but maybe not perfect. What I mean is that on the occasion I've tried to do a search it didnt fill me with excitement, only sadness. As my eyes moved over the screen I couldn't help but wonde,r "is this person ok?", "She shouldn't have shared her special beauty with the world." Its all definitely not the same for me, even with the tremendous stress I feel these days with our current economic-political shit show, I don't feel a rush of excitement or thrill for it anymore and I'm not sure why I even bother peaking at it when I know full well I'll only feel a sense of mourning for them all. Is that a thing, to mourn for those trapped in that world? To me we are both victims of a sort, both seeking attention and to be wanted, but seeking for it in the wrong place... PMO, has taken and wrecked so many lives, promising love and pleasure, but delivering loneliness and heart ache for everyone involved. I thank God for my changed heart, without his work in me I'd still be wasting my life hours on end chasing that higher high, the rush. Its clearly time to let the dead bury their own dead, if any of them are His sheep they will hear and know the shepherds voice and come out and follow him. Too much time in the graveyard is unhealthy and looking back is frowned on, I need to remember that and focus on moving forward. G-day.
 
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JerryTX

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@Artemus Thanks for checking in and the update. I agree with you on the "lack of excitement" that comes from this point in my journey as well. It is a good thing. GOD is good All the time! Like you I am also upset about the current state of the US. It's sad to say the least and my prayer is people continue to "wake up". Even my college aged son sees it.

Anyway great to hear from you and thanks for sharing. Good luck on finishing the house and selling it.
 
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