I'm a porn addict (by far the crappiest, lamest addiction ever)

retain_regain

New Member
Thanks Orbiter - I will!

Okay, two weeks without porn. This week is going good so far.

I've kind of figured out that my mental health and my porn addiction are kinda interlinked. So this week I'm really looking after my mental health. Doing lots of meditations. Getting my mind back into good shape.

So far, so good. I encourage everyone to give meditation a go. It's brilliant for any number of things: clear thinking, focus, helping one to live in the moment. It also helps with willpower which we all struggle with.

Best
Yes, mental health and PMO are related.
I have anxiety disorder and I recently find out my PMO addiction is the cause.
I will give meditation a try. Thank you.
 

Escapeandnevercomeback

Respected Member
Yes, mental health and PMO are related.
I have anxiety disorder and I recently find out my PMO addiction is the cause.
I will give meditation a try. Thank you.
I have all the reasons to believe that too much PMO has affected my mental health a lot. I belive that my high social anxiety is a result of this. It started when I was 14-15 when I was masturbating twice a day to porn flashbacks and porn induced fantasies. But it got really bad when I was 18 and binging 7 PMOs in a day. And not only this but overthinking, depression, low mental tolerance, poor concentrate, memory problems, difficulties with memorizing, and I used to have a great ability to memorize and remember things in elementary school, it was my strength and then porn addiction hit hard and it has reduced this ability to a laughing stock, I need to read something like 10 times to memorize it.
 

forceisstrong2

Active Member
Yes, mental health and PMO are related.
I have anxiety disorder and I recently find out my PMO addiction is the cause.
I will give meditation a try. Thank you.

hey retain-regain!

Yeah, do! Try meditation. Join an app or watch a youtube video. It might take a few weeks but you will start seeing positive results. When I'm strong mentally, porn isn't an issue. When my mind is weak, it is. I suffer from anxiety too. Meditation helps with that too.

For me, I try to make meditation a habit. I try to do it every day at a certain time for ten minutes.

Give it a try, best of luck on your journey and let me know how it goes!
 

forceisstrong2

Active Member
I have all the reasons to believe that too much PMO has affected my mental health a lot. I belive that my high social anxiety is a result of this. It started when I was 14-15 when I was masturbating twice a day to porn flashbacks and porn induced fantasies. But it got really bad when I was 18 and binging 7 PMOs in a day. And not only this but overthinking, depression, low mental tolerance, poor concentrate, memory problems, difficulties with memorizing, and I used to have a great ability to memorize and remember things in elementary school, it was my strength and then porn addiction hit hard and it has reduced this ability to a laughing stock, I need to read something like 10 times to memorize it.

Hey Escape,

Overthinking, depression, low mental tolerance, poor concentrate, memory problems, difficulties with memorizing - I've got all of those issues too. I find meditation helpful with all of those things. You do sound like you're having a really difficult time though. A counselor or therapist might be able to help you. There are also groups out there that you can join.

I relapsed a couple of weeks ago and fucked hated myself afterwards, but this week I do feel a lot better. This addiction truly is a mountain of shit, but I know this with absolute certainty... past that shit mountain is glorious warm sunshine, real life my friend. We can all attain it. Sometimes though we need to reach out to people and get the help we need. Think about it...

Best of luck on your journey, buddy.
 

Escapeandnevercomeback

Respected Member
Hey Escape,

Overthinking, depression, low mental tolerance, poor concentrate, memory problems, difficulties with memorizing - I've got all of those issues too. I find meditation helpful with all of those things. You do sound like you're having a really difficult time though. A counselor or therapist might be able to help you. There are also groups out there that you can join.

I relapsed a couple of weeks ago and fucked hated myself afterwards, but this week I do feel a lot better. This addiction truly is a mountain of shit, but I know this with absolute certainty... past that shit mountain is glorious warm sunshine, real life my friend. We can all attain it. Sometimes though we need to reach out to people and get the help we need. Think about it...

Best of luck on your journey, buddy.
Things change a lot when I stay away from porn. The emphasis here is "When I stay away".... .
 

forceisstrong2

Active Member
Okay, so I haven't posted here in a while. I kinda have taken a step backwards since I last logger on over a month ago as in I've started watching porn once a week. Usually in the weekends. But now I'm gonna try and stay off it for good.

I'm gonna use this forum as a journal. Something to keep me motivated and act as a counter of sorts.

Five days so far without watching porn. Five days living clean and good. My aim is for the rest of the year/December to stay off it and stay healthy.

Wish me luck!
 
Okay, so I haven't posted here in a while. I kinda have taken a step backwards since I last logger on over a month ago as in I've started watching porn once a week. Usually in the weekends. But now I'm gonna try and stay off it for good.

I'm gonna use this forum as a journal. Something to keep me motivated and act as a counter of sorts.

Five days so far without watching porn. Five days living clean and good. My aim is for the rest of the year/December to stay off it and stay healthy.

Wish me luck!
Hey man.
I've sort of fallin off the wagon as well. I like your goal of making it through December. We ve got this!
 

forceisstrong2

Active Member
Hey, thanks Squidward. Yeah, one day at a time. Each day is a victory. I'm on day six. One more day and that's a week.

Let's do this
 

MrTibs

Member
Hey Been an addict since I was 12 man. I’m a week in. And I’m following behind you. You gotta lead the way. Now that I looked and read all these articles and videos on how the Porn industry targets us as people , it helps me say “Fuck you You Creeps” when I start to feel it’s draw. Social Media really made it worse for me and having a phone at my fingertips. I have been looking for any other hobbies or things to fidget with when I feel the pull. I think I have more YouTube hours logged on hobbies then anything this week lol. I kind of wish we had a chat room on here that we could go on to BS about anything when we need to distract our minds. I guess that’s why I’m doing right now as I sit alone trying to prevent myself from relapsing. Have you had any withdraw symptoms ? I have started getting headaches. A bit edgy so I cut off coffee (refills). And I started an audiobook series.
 

Escapeandnevercomeback

Respected Member
Hey Been an addict since I was 12 man. I’m a week in. And I’m following behind you. You gotta lead the way. Now that I looked and read all these articles and videos on how the Porn industry targets us as people , it helps me say “Fuck you You Creeps” when I start to feel it’s draw. Social Media really made it worse for me and having a phone at my fingertips. I have been looking for any other hobbies or things to fidget with when I feel the pull. I think I have more YouTube hours logged on hobbies then anything this week lol. I kind of wish we had a chat room on here that we could go on to BS about anything when we need to distract our minds. I guess that’s why I’m doing right now as I sit alone trying to prevent myself from relapsing. Have you had any withdraw symptoms ? I have started getting headaches. A bit edgy so I cut off coffee (refills). And I started an audiobook series.
I feel you, man. I started my own porn world when I was 14. The fact that I mostly used porn related fantasies to jerk off to back then until I was 16 has proven detrimental for my recovery now because I am having a hard time staying away from fantasizing porn.
 

forceisstrong2

Active Member
Hey Been an addict since I was 12 man. I’m a week in. And I’m following behind you. You gotta lead the way. Now that I looked and read all these articles and videos on how the Porn industry targets us as people , it helps me say “Fuck you You Creeps” when I start to feel it’s draw. Social Media really made it worse for me and having a phone at my fingertips. I have been looking for any other hobbies or things to fidget with when I feel the pull. I think I have more YouTube hours logged on hobbies then anything this week lol. I kind of wish we had a chat room on here that we could go on to BS about anything when we need to distract our minds. I guess that’s why I’m doing right now as I sit alone trying to prevent myself from relapsing. Have you had any withdraw symptoms ? I have started getting headaches. A bit edgy so I cut off coffee (refills). And I started an audiobook series.
Mr. Tibs,

We all got to build strategies, ways to beat this bullshit of an addiction. What I know for a fact is that life (mentally and in every other possible way) is so much better without this bullshit. It is the worst addiction ever. Total bullshit.

I use meditation, avoiding triggers, etc, to beat this bullshit.

You can do it. Avoid porn this week. Aim to have a great start to the New Year.

Force
 

MrTibs

Member
Mr. Tibs,

We all got to build strategies, ways to beat this bullshit of an addiction. What I know for a fact is that life (mentally and in every other possible way) is so much better without this bullshit. It is the worst addiction ever. Total bullshit.

I use meditation, avoiding triggers, etc, to beat this bullshit.

You can do it. Avoid porn this week. Aim to have a great start to the New Year.

Force
Honest question. When is it ok to have sex with the partner? Like how soon is ok. I have urges. But if I redirect the dopamine release to interactions with the partner then it is a good thing right ? Or do I need to detox for a set time?
 

forceisstrong2

Active Member
Honest question. When is it ok to have sex with the partner? Like how soon is ok. I have urges. But if I redirect the dopamine release to interactions with the partner then it is a good thing right ? Or do I need to detox for a set time?
Yeah, I think it's fine to have sex with a partner. That's what we're all aiming for, having intimate relationships and not jerking off to fuckin porn.

Best of lucky, buddy.
 

Escapeandnevercomeback

Respected Member
Mr. Tibs,

We all got to build strategies, ways to beat this bullshit of an addiction. What I know for a fact is that life (mentally and in every other possible way) is so much better without this bullshit. It is the worst addiction ever. Total bullshit.

I use meditation, avoiding triggers, etc, to beat this bullshit.

You can do it. Avoid porn this week. Aim to have a great start to the New Year.

Force
Absolutely true. Porn is the chains that keep you mediocre. It's the 600 pounds gorilla on our back that won't let us move freely. Porn is the ultimate motivation, drive, energy, libido killer. It's the ultimate pleasure trap for those who thought they shouldn't touch drugs because they are lethal. Well, porn is lethal in its own way. I don't mean it kill anybody, porn doesn't kill, but it "kills" the brain. It fucks up the brain and all sorts of "mental problems" arise from this. We didn't know what we were getting into. We had no information. When I was binging hardcore porn, I didn't bump into any information that porn could fuck me up. I thought I had find the ultimate harmless pleasure. And now I'm 31 with mental health issues. Stay away from porn y'all!
 

forceisstrong2

Active Member
Day 15 - no porn.

I'm kinda anxious. Mental health isn't the greatest. But I'm gonna beat this addiction.

I read back some of my earlier posts today, especially the ones in which I was clean for two months. That's where I need/want to be. That's my aim. To be clean and free of this bullshit addiction so that I can grow and be a better person.

Let's keep this rolling.

Force
 

forceisstrong2

Active Member
Ok, it's a new fucking year... It's my fucking year. And porn isn't going to stop me from acheiving my goals.

Fuck porn. Fuck it to death.

When I was a young fella, I never dreamt I was going to get addicted to this shite thing... anyway, yeah it's happened. I'm not proud. I'm a fucking idiot. But no fucking more. New Year. No fucking porn.

Fuck porn

Force
 
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