I'm a porn addict (by far the crappiest, lamest addiction ever)

forceisstrong2

Active Member
Alight, so it’s been a while since I posted. Basically I fell off the wagon before my 90 days Couple weeks back. This obviously sucked. But even before that I’ve been kinda ebbing and flowing between using porn subs (tinder being the big one) and staying free of the bullshit. So if I did hit the 90 days it wouldn’t really feel like to me that I did really hit the ninety days. Yeah, I stayed off porn for 80 whatever days, but my addict mind was getting it’s chemical hits in other ways. Not sure if this is making any sense, but basically I’m going to do a full digital detox.

I can’t remember the last time I watched porn, but I’m going to call today day 1. Going forward, that means no more porn, no more tinder, no more porn subs, no more digital distractions. The worst thing about all of this bullshit for me is that it’s like I’m drifting through life. Not really living at all and that’s fucking depressing. Life at the moment feels like being stuck in a bad dream that I can’t escape out of.

Anyway, fuck that and fuck porn,

Day 1
 

forceisstrong2

Active Member
Okay, so I did quit porn, but the last few weeks especially I've kinda been cheating a bit with it, having the one drink won't hurt thinking, basically lying to myself. I've been finding too lately that a lot of my old self destructive habits have been returning. Negative thinking, social anxiety, fucked up thinking. So f**k it... I need a reset. No point in lying to myself or to this forum.

I watched porn last Saturday. There, I admit it. Not a binge or anything but still, fuck porn. My aim is to be clean for the rest of this month. Not just of porn, but also of porn subs and also any other bad habits. Then hopefully I'll keep going. So today is day three on this journey. Do wish me luck!

Day 3

Fuck porn
 

Blondie

Respected Member
I watched porn last Saturday. There, I admit it. Not a binge or anything but still, fuck porn. My aim is to be clean for the rest of this month. Not just of porn, but also of porn subs and also any other bad habits. Then hopefully I'll keep going. So today is day three on this journey. Do wish me luck!
Hey @forceisstrong2, it's alright man, just get back up and keep on moving. I think so much of this is doing everything, not just quitting porn but improving other habits as well, as you mentioned.

You got this.
 

forceisstrong2

Active Member
Each night before I go to sleep I meditate for half an hour and then I go onto this forum. Meditation is great for focus. It is also great for quieting the mind. The trick to it is making it a habit. The more you do it the better it gets, til it becomes the favourite thing to do every day.

Tomorrow I'm gonna start meditating in the morning too. Practice gratitude. That should get me ready for the day.

Peace everyone and day 5
 

forceisstrong2

Active Member
Hey, back on this. This is day 9. My mental health took a bit of a nose dive lately. It had to do with porn but also just bad patterns of thought. I had a pretty bad social experience lately. It made me reflect, realise that I cant be this without being in really good shape mentally. So I'm meditating daily. I'm also swimming a lot. Dont know why but it really helps to clear my head, get it thinking correctly. I'm gonna keep all of this up.

Good mental health is key to not watching porn. Hope everyone is having a good week
 
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