Not a Rabbi
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Hey man, sorry to hear you're feeling depressed. I don't know you of course but you have things you can do to lift yourself up: work out, go for a walk, engage in any kind of hobby, watch a movie, listen to music, whatever. I've been in this situation a lot and I feel like the key is just doing something, anything instead of aimlessly going on my phone/computer which just makes me feel worse. Doesn't even need to be active honestly, just something that can help me feel less shitty/occupy me.Guys, depression is kicking in hard atm...fucking loneliness. I am not sure if I can stay abstinent when I don't get out of it again. Because at some point I just stop carrying or even worse want to destroy myself. Urges are very strong today and it is kind funny how they are not connected to arousal (I am certainly not feeling horny), but to negative emotional states.
It got worse the from day to day and since like two to three weeks I feel like I am fighting a battle I can't win, because I need such a constant stream of positive experiences to compensate the negative experience (being mostly loneliness) that I just can't provide it. I can't visit friends every day because my best friend is hundreds of km away and here I know some people with which I connected the last months, but they are not so close friends.
I don't really know how to to on...
Btw, I don't know if you can relate to this, but the city where I live gets pretty dark all winter and I get depressed. Best ways to help this for me are using a sun lamp, getting outside as much as possible, and taking extra vitamin d.