Journey to a better me

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Day 65:

Learning to master and control sexual energy is amazing!

After re-reading chapter 11 of "Think and grow rich" by Napoleon Hill, I found that at some point in my sales career (when porn wasnt haunting me) I unconsciously used that energy to focus and perform at my best. Now that I'm aware of it, I dont want to cum during sex to harness that energy. But I know that sex and cuming is all natural so I won't go out of my way to avoid it... maybe just try to cum once a week.

I am learning to be inspired by womens beauty, as Blondie said previously their "smile, a curve, how they walk, their natural feminine empathy". I enjoy being in their presence without sexualising them in anyway.

Cheers for the support lads!
I hope everyone is going well in their journey.

Edit: Been super consistent with gym and meditation give or take a couple of days here and there. After a good weekend with friends drinking and smoking, Im doing a 5 day / 12hrs a day water fast to detoxmy mind and body and reset. This is a way for me to reinforce the good habits I've built so far and stay off social media
 
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Blondie

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Looks like you're cleaning house!

I'm glad to see you've been incorporating that chapter into your life. I've found as well that refraining from cumming for a week is the best practice, it's not too much or extreme, but it does get your creative juices flowing.

You're doing great Kid Gohan, keep it up.

Best.
 
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@Blondie I can see how you got to 200+ days and owning your progress.
You've been through your own challenges and had to find your own ways to overcome them.
I appreciate your posts and you always seem to understand what im going through like you've been there before.

Hell yeah Im cleaning the house, if I dont do it, then who will? right?
 
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congrats... i hope you are getting better.
Im doing great, this whole journey has been nothing but blessings, self discovery and growth.
I truly wish that everyone goes through a phase of growth and self dicovery.

Hope youre doing well too my guy
 
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Day 69:

For the last couple of weeks, I've become a minute-man, one-pump-wonder, whatver you wanna call it. I dont last long. Its really started to bother me as I have always been used to making sure my partner is satisfied first.

I put my weekly retention plans to the side as we wanted to improve our sex life due to a bit of distance recently. One positive from this is that no matter what, I always remind myself that I'd rather bre a minute-man than go back to porn, and the urges are so rare and faint that I dont feed into them.

Guess I should get back on pelvic floor excercises until something happens
 

Blondie

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Hey Kid Gohan, nice job on 69 days!

I hear you with this one-pump-wonder business, I've also had to slow it down over the last while, because I get so excited these days! Good job on ordering your values though.
One positive from this is that no matter what, I always remind myself that I'd rather bre a minute-man than go back to porn

This is key and is very important in knowing something you would rather experience (especially if not a positive thing), then ever looking at porn again. It's good to know these things.

I'm sure the pelvic floor exercises will help too. I probably should start doing those again myself, but it is kind of enjoyable sometimes just feeling that excited again! :cool:

Best.
 
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Day 80:

Life is good. Just been focusing on life outside porn and its been great, did some travelling around the country, stepped outside my comfort zone a lot and met some great people.

Life can really be amazing when you open yourself up to blessings and focus on the good.

I'm still staying aware of any sign of weakness or temptations, equally I'm not taking it too seriously. Everything is going well and Ill stay focused on that
 
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Day 91:

Still going strong. Had a bit of a mental slump over the last few weeks with all the travelling, time spent catching up with friends and just being outr of my daily routine in general.
It had me in a bad mood for a while and I fell back into the IG NSFW image trap for a couple of days but managed to pull myself out of it and finally deactivated the app. I want the best for myself and only I can get myself there.

Lots of trust in the relationship again, open communications, honesty and it feels good not to have anything to hide anymore.

A year ago today I would have been lying and trying to cover up my addiction. We went through hell to get to where we are now, I only wish I knew it was this easy back then but I guess everyone learns at their own pace.

Im now creating my own path to inner peace, internal happiness, creating my world as I see fit and constantly reminding myself that I am the master of my own life.

Stay grateful & keep learning and growing
 
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Heyyo @Blondie !!!

I've been good my brother! Just been enjoying life and figuring myself out a bit more. Its a great journey with lots to learn.
 
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Day 98:

Second time coming round to the 100 day mark, I feel more in control of myself. I've given myself a personal rule to never lust over any type of digital woman, only real women that I see in real life. This has really come in handy a few times and reminded myself of the negative side effects that would come from relapsing.

Partner is off for a few weeks and I just had a wank so I dont go 2 weeks dry (No porn was used in this process).
Im being a bit more aware this week alone but im also feeling confident.

"If we dont make consistent discipline part of our daily lives, the result we seek will be sporadic and elusive" - Jim Rohn
 
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Day 101:

A year ago, being home alone would have been a week full of porn on the daily. Today, I reflect on that and cant help but feel proud, I've had no urge to watch porn, I havent had to restrain myself or try hard to not think of it. At the moment, vaping and cigarettes are a bigger weakness than porn and I'd rather things stay that way (still working on quitting).

Its been a long road to get to this point, yet it also feels like it was yesterday that I wrote my first post here. I'm grateful for all the failures and what they taught me about myself and the person I want to be; for everyone who's had an impact on my progress, for all the support, advice and encouragement.

I used to think there was no hope for me or that I was a special case who was too hooked on porn to ever stop. All it took was changing my mindset and wanting the best from myself at all times.

To anyone reading this, you can do it. Believe in yourself more than anything, it takes daily practice and consistent discipline to overcome this shitty addiction.

I wish you all nothing but the best and success in your progress.
 
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Day 102:

I dont watch porn anymore, its part of my past but not my present and future. I dont want to think about when the next time I'll relapse will be. I'd rather focus on who I am, who I want to be and work on enjoying and improving my life.

I dont want to be a victim of my past anymore. Porn has ruined a few years of my life but I'm taking control and putting my energy towards being a happier, healthier and better me.

Something I've learned during my journry is that "we are the masters of our own lives, we made the decisions that lead us to where we are & we can make new and better decisions to get us where we want to be"
 
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