JustOtherGuy
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I'm 29, but I'll be 30 this month.
I remember watching porn for the first time. It were my cousins in my house since we had a VHS at home. I was so nervous that my mom asked for what I was watching and I lied. I think I was 9.
In high school, a friend of my lend me a dvd that I watched alone in my computer. When I saw it I ejeculated without even touching myself. I was 12. I feel ashamed, and never asked for another dvd.
When I was 15, I remember that a group of friends were talking about fapping. I replied I didn't know how to do that. But I do remember feeling very horny for hot girls I liked in school.
So I started doing it, with porn.
My family is poor, so I have always had anxiety about money.
When started working, I took responsibility for projects beyond my competence level, and stress for worst case scenarios of customers firing me would lead me to porn consumption.
This only got worse with time and nowadays I use it as a relief for stress, which is sadly more and more frequent in my daily life.
I have definitely escalated in my consumption but thanks God I've had no problem reaching orgasm, but my wife has noted that my boner is not hard enough when I had masturbated recently.
Last week I watched porn every day in my working hours. Which make me feel real bad.
I remember discover my dad watching porn at home, and thinking what could possibly be wrong with him?
And also feel bad for judging him back then.
I want to recover, and find another way to deal with stress.
I want to cut it forever from my life.
Last time consumed porn was 2 days ago.
I just read someone else's thread and feel scared reading the frequent relapses even after months of successful reboot. Anyway, I think there's just one way to find out what my path will be. Start to walk through it.
Thanks for reading.
I remember watching porn for the first time. It were my cousins in my house since we had a VHS at home. I was so nervous that my mom asked for what I was watching and I lied. I think I was 9.
In high school, a friend of my lend me a dvd that I watched alone in my computer. When I saw it I ejeculated without even touching myself. I was 12. I feel ashamed, and never asked for another dvd.
When I was 15, I remember that a group of friends were talking about fapping. I replied I didn't know how to do that. But I do remember feeling very horny for hot girls I liked in school.
So I started doing it, with porn.
My family is poor, so I have always had anxiety about money.
When started working, I took responsibility for projects beyond my competence level, and stress for worst case scenarios of customers firing me would lead me to porn consumption.
This only got worse with time and nowadays I use it as a relief for stress, which is sadly more and more frequent in my daily life.
I have definitely escalated in my consumption but thanks God I've had no problem reaching orgasm, but my wife has noted that my boner is not hard enough when I had masturbated recently.
Last week I watched porn every day in my working hours. Which make me feel real bad.
I remember discover my dad watching porn at home, and thinking what could possibly be wrong with him?
And also feel bad for judging him back then.
I want to recover, and find another way to deal with stress.
I want to cut it forever from my life.
Last time consumed porn was 2 days ago.
I just read someone else's thread and feel scared reading the frequent relapses even after months of successful reboot. Anyway, I think there's just one way to find out what my path will be. Start to walk through it.
Thanks for reading.
