96LostWanderer
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October 17th 2021
No relapses today - Day 4
No relapses today - Day 4
Journal for my reboot
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96LostWanderer
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October 18th 2021
No relapses today and few urges - Day 5
No relapses today and few urges - Day 5
96LostWanderer
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October 19th 2021
Relapsed again
Relapsed again
Anytime there’s an urge to watch porn, think bout how miserable you feel after. I sometimes come on here to read other journals and covers with others so I don’t fall off track. I’ve been able to go 2 months without M, deactivated my Snapchat, ig too but I find myself downloading Twitter again everytime. I find myself going through profiles of random ladies which makes me yearn for PMO. Anytime there’s an urge, I remind myself how bad I want to break free and how miserable I feel after. I don’t trust myself but each time I stay PMO free, I feel proud and then remind myself of the ultimate goal
96LostWanderer
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Thanks for the response. I will keep trying to remind myself that the relapses are hurting me in the long run. But in the short term, sometimes the urge comes on so strong and you think you’ll just feel better if you look at porn. Then as soon as you’re finished the shame sets in, almost instantly.
96LostWanderer
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I’m going to make a promise to people reading this thread. I won’t look at porn for the rest of October. I’m going to make that my initial goal. I don’t like breaking promises so I’m hoping this will keep me accountable.
96LostWanderer
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October 20th 2021
No relapses, low urges - Day 1
No relapses, low urges - Day 1
96LostWanderer
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October 22nd 2021
No porn during the last two days, low urges - Day 3
No porn during the last two days, low urges - Day 3
96LostWanderer
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October 23rd 2021
No porn today, few urges - Day 4
No porn today, few urges - Day 4
96LostWanderer
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October 25th 2021
Still managing to avoid relapse, had a few temptations but nothing too strong yet - Day 6
Still managing to avoid relapse, had a few temptations but nothing too strong yet - Day 6
96LostWanderer
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October 26th 2021
Still avoiding relapse - Day 7
Still avoiding relapse - Day 7
96LostWanderer
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October 27th 2021
Relapsed with one image then stopped. Not going to go back for the rest of today. But I’m sorry to say I broke the promise I made earlier in this thread. So I am resetting my counter.
Relapsed with one image then stopped. Not going to go back for the rest of today. But I’m sorry to say I broke the promise I made earlier in this thread. So I am resetting my counter.
96LostWanderer
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October 28th 2021
No porn today - Day 1
No porn today - Day 1
96LostWanderer
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October 29th 2021
Relapsed, lacking motivation again
Relapsed, lacking motivation again
96LostWanderer
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October 31st 2021
Relapse carried on yesterday so today is my Day 1 again. Feeling some temptation but sticking to keeping my phone downstairs in a public part of my house. Also going to try another SAA meeting later and see if it’s helpful.
Relapse carried on yesterday so today is my Day 1 again. Feeling some temptation but sticking to keeping my phone downstairs in a public part of my house. Also going to try another SAA meeting later and see if it’s helpful.
96LostWanderer
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November 2nd 2021
Day 2. Avoided porn yesterday. Going to attempt No Nut November and not drinking alcohol all month. Also focusing on the Three Circles concept that is talked about in SAA.
Day 2. Avoided porn yesterday. Going to attempt No Nut November and not drinking alcohol all month. Also focusing on the Three Circles concept that is talked about in SAA.
96LostWanderer
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November 3rd 2021
Relapsed last night. Going to try and start No Nut November again today since yesterday was a total failure and I can do better.
Relapsed last night. Going to try and start No Nut November again today since yesterday was a total failure and I can do better.
96LostWanderer
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November 4th 2021
Day 2.
Locked my phone in the car again last night. I am doing that as a precautionary measure when I get urges.
Day 2.
Locked my phone in the car again last night. I am doing that as a precautionary measure when I get urges.
96LostWanderer
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November 5th 2021
Day 3
Day 3