anonymoussaand
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This may be a slightly long read but it’s because i want to let you know all the details as I’m in DIRE NEED for HELP. So I’m a brown guy around 22, Pretty muscular and a handsome dude. I’ve never had any issues flirting with and picking up girls. In fact they’ve even admitted to me that I was intimidatingly attractive. However for the last couple years (not many chances to get laid) I’ve been into watching cuckold porn which gives me peak erections.
A year ago I had a relationship with a nice girl who loved me with everything. Because of me being used to cuckold porn, I wasn’t able to get peak erections during sex like before but still managed well and she even claimed that I was amazing and her best in bed right from our first hook up. I have strict parents and they had made me travel away and live with them for a while because of my partying and sexual encounters. And on top of that It was also difficult to get back as the pandemic made International traveling harder. We continued dating long distance for a year until she couldn’t handle anymore with me being unable to head back. So we broke it off peacefully and I even realized I was with her for the emotional support she gave me during this depressing period (parents, etc) rather than fully being in love with her.
Now I am finally about to leave my parents place after securing a job and am happy about it. But the issue was that during these 6 months after breakup, I can’t stop masturbating to thoughts of her with other men. Moreover living with such controlling parents I haven’t been able to hook up or rebound with anyone else either. Meanwhile she’s hooked up with tons of dudes and I can’t stop picturing it when I masturbate. I started watching small penis Cuckold porn (sph) even when I’m pretty hung and have been called the biggest they’ve had by multiple lovers. My mind has become disgraceful and I cry when I’m in my senses!!! Now that I’m finally leaving my parents, I am afraid how my sexual encounters in the future would be as what really turns me on now are cuckold thoughts about her or in general. I am sure I’ll be able to pickup women but am utterly scared about how I’ll perform sexually as it’s been over a year without intercourse.
Also when I don’t masturbate for 3 days, I feel great erections during normal masturbations (imagining real life girls, celebrities, watching the usual normal porn etc) and don’t need cuckold porn/thoughts for my peak erections. So I guess the answer is to abstain from masturbating till my mind gets back to being turned on by usual things. But my issue is that the depression and boredom from living here forces me to masturbate for relief. Please please provide me with ways to abstain even during this boredom. And i hope there is a surefire way I can get rid of these thoughts?
I thank you for patiently listening to my dilemma. I would be so grateful if you could offer advice on reprogramming my brain and not get distracted by cuckold thoughts. I absolutely despise them and I cry looking at how physically, I am attractive, muscular, good in bed and endowed but still my mind is reduced to these trains of thoughts.
PS, Asian parents are a pain, especially when you lag behind a year in education. Thus the reason for them to keep me at home without distractions till I graduate and secure a job. Pretty depressing year and a half but I’m looking forward to the next phase of life soon when I can be independent
A year ago I had a relationship with a nice girl who loved me with everything. Because of me being used to cuckold porn, I wasn’t able to get peak erections during sex like before but still managed well and she even claimed that I was amazing and her best in bed right from our first hook up. I have strict parents and they had made me travel away and live with them for a while because of my partying and sexual encounters. And on top of that It was also difficult to get back as the pandemic made International traveling harder. We continued dating long distance for a year until she couldn’t handle anymore with me being unable to head back. So we broke it off peacefully and I even realized I was with her for the emotional support she gave me during this depressing period (parents, etc) rather than fully being in love with her.
Now I am finally about to leave my parents place after securing a job and am happy about it. But the issue was that during these 6 months after breakup, I can’t stop masturbating to thoughts of her with other men. Moreover living with such controlling parents I haven’t been able to hook up or rebound with anyone else either. Meanwhile she’s hooked up with tons of dudes and I can’t stop picturing it when I masturbate. I started watching small penis Cuckold porn (sph) even when I’m pretty hung and have been called the biggest they’ve had by multiple lovers. My mind has become disgraceful and I cry when I’m in my senses!!! Now that I’m finally leaving my parents, I am afraid how my sexual encounters in the future would be as what really turns me on now are cuckold thoughts about her or in general. I am sure I’ll be able to pickup women but am utterly scared about how I’ll perform sexually as it’s been over a year without intercourse.
Also when I don’t masturbate for 3 days, I feel great erections during normal masturbations (imagining real life girls, celebrities, watching the usual normal porn etc) and don’t need cuckold porn/thoughts for my peak erections. So I guess the answer is to abstain from masturbating till my mind gets back to being turned on by usual things. But my issue is that the depression and boredom from living here forces me to masturbate for relief. Please please provide me with ways to abstain even during this boredom. And i hope there is a surefire way I can get rid of these thoughts?
I thank you for patiently listening to my dilemma. I would be so grateful if you could offer advice on reprogramming my brain and not get distracted by cuckold thoughts. I absolutely despise them and I cry looking at how physically, I am attractive, muscular, good in bed and endowed but still my mind is reduced to these trains of thoughts.
PS, Asian parents are a pain, especially when you lag behind a year in education. Thus the reason for them to keep me at home without distractions till I graduate and secure a job. Pretty depressing year and a half but I’m looking forward to the next phase of life soon when I can be independent