As the title implies, i've spent over 20 years (!!!) watching porn. The worst part is I didn't even recognize it as an obvious addiction until just over a year ago. I've made all the excuses: "I drank to much beer", "I was too tired", "I was too tired after drinking too much beer", "I didn't really like her", "Maybe I didn't find her attractive". And so on.
But last year it finally became very clear.
No beer. Not tired. I liked her. I was attracted to her.
Still no erection.
Great.
Started reading about E.D. Found many articles about PiED, and realized I was not the only person going through this, and got really, really excited about changing my life. I have made huge improvements, according to me at least. Just realizing that this is an addiction is a huge improvement.
It has been really difficult to reboot though, I think the longest I've gone without PMO is 14 days straight. And it feels like there's some kind of "magic" threshold around that amount of days. I can't seem to get past them. Anyhow, for over a year now i've had these on and off periods, so i thought maybe I should try this with the journal stuff, see if it feels any different.
This is day 2.
But last year it finally became very clear.
No beer. Not tired. I liked her. I was attracted to her.
Still no erection.
Great.
Started reading about E.D. Found many articles about PiED, and realized I was not the only person going through this, and got really, really excited about changing my life. I have made huge improvements, according to me at least. Just realizing that this is an addiction is a huge improvement.
It has been really difficult to reboot though, I think the longest I've gone without PMO is 14 days straight. And it feels like there's some kind of "magic" threshold around that amount of days. I can't seem to get past them. Anyhow, for over a year now i've had these on and off periods, so i thought maybe I should try this with the journal stuff, see if it feels any different.
This is day 2.